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2010-07-18T23:04:00.001+08:00

Here is my tumblr link. haha.

http://rainbowsinmyheart.tumblr.com

2010-07-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

OMG.

My blog is sooooooo dead. I am no longer going to update my blog i think. I dont want to delete it either cause it is full of memories. Since like 2007? <3

Ok maybe i shall update it when i feel like it. haha.

Anyway do visit my tumblr . It is waaaaay muchmuch better than this blog of mine (:

Cheers.

Airplanes

2010-05-07T21:49:00.005+08:00

It is sad, when somone you KNOW became someone you KNEW.

Espcially if that hapens between good friends isnt it?

Mid years is over. Results? Suck
I even scored badly for MT. I dont know what was going through my mind while doing that paper. Suck. Computer Sudies O level coursework has ended. It was such a relief. No more coursework anymore! Now having Mother Tongue Intensive in school. such a bore, but hell. MT olvl paper coming soon.

Why am i blogging? Just felt like it. My blog is dead. now i dont even know what i should be blogging bout.

Had a boring day today at home. Doing the malay papers cikgu had given. Watch tv. Sleep.

Gosh.

Alisa and Azlizah both off to watch soccer. Love is off to some party.

I have someting in my mind to talk about.

Isnt it sad if you lost someone? Not literally lost as in you wiill nvr see him/her again. but lost as in you know him/her is still there but you would never get to be with them like how you were years ago or maybe months ago. Especially the feeling of being betrayed by the samn person. Wondering did she/he ever treasure the freindship that he/she cold do that. Passing by each other like we just now each other a week ago. Worst still act as if nothing happened. Complicated. Very. I cant even put the story into pieces anymore. Changes. Because of the changes around us. People change. Surroundings chage. Our friendship would last. I am having doubts believing in that now. Now, i am having doubts trusting you. That is how bad things is going on. I chose not to care at all. For me it is all history. Plainly because i am tired of trying to find way to fix things back to places. I have tried not once, but failed. Well, i should not be bothered with it anymore. It is just part of life. People come and go. Wether i'm sad bout it? Myb. But i should not dwell bout it. For i have lost all the hopes, totally. Instead of having the feeling of sadness lingering around me when i see you, i have feelings of anger aroud me. Weird much..?

16

2010-05-03T18:31:00.003+08:00

And so i'm officially 16.

Been a long time since i updated my bloggie. My computer had some health problem. so i have to rely on my sister's lappy which is rarely at home.

Today was awesome. Spend my time with Alisa, Azlizah and Jayraj (:
It was really a surprise for me. It was wonderful how well they carry out the surprise.

So much of lies eh.

But well although they lied to me i still appreciate whatever they had done for me.

I dont wanna elaborate on the surprise. If not it'll be one long story. Heh. It'll be kept within me.

I was really touched. I almost melted when i opened up Love's present. I LOVE YOU ALOT. Heh. ^^

Alisa and Azlizah spend the rest of thier time with me at my house. (: I love them alot too. And and thier present was nice too. heh.

I'm really thankful to them for the time and cheering me up.

I was really hoping for this one particular person to text me. But till now, nothing from her. Sad uh. I'm really wondering what happen. But well nvm. Perhaps she is busy. ): I should not brood over bout it. I almost cried when i talked bout this to Alisa.

But nvm i should be happy with those who is with me. (:

I had a graet time with my family too eh.

<3333333

Insecure

2010-03-31T22:05:00.002+08:00

Weird much?

Had Speech day training today then off to KFC with the usual peeps. Everyone was in high spirit for idk why. For that moment i forget everything that was bothering my mind.

tsktsk.

I hate 9 April. I hate making decisions that i really don't know which one would be best for me. Maybe others could see which decision would be best but i can't. Cause i'm plainly confuse.

I was looking forward to this day ALOOOOT.

Speech day and SPF ceremony at HTA. It would be the best day if i didn't have to choose between the two. It's so hard to have to choose. I went for every single training for speech day but i couldn't make it for the real one. I have to find a replacement for the contingent if i choose the ceremony. but i would miss speech day and i have to make my way to hta alone if i choose SPF. But in both cases i will get the badge. So which one? Idk.

Love is definitely choosing speech day over the ceremony. And whatever he said was true. It is better for me to go for the ceremony than the speech day. After all i'm only in GOH contingent with no riffle while he is the Parade Commander.

Still i couldn't get myself to pick either one.

This feeling truly suck big time. I would look forward to end 9 April fast. And go for Amanda's bbq the next day with a big smile on my face. Not regretting what ever choice i had made the day before.

Shinning stars

2010-03-07T20:29:00.005+08:00

I'm here. Blogging again. :D
I'm getting bored with the blogskin but i'm too lazy to change it.
Hah.

Firstly,

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY KHOIRUL ANWAAR!
Keep rocking on yeah buddy. Nploves <3
*insertwidesmileyface*

I have nothing much to update on though.

Cheer Competition is tomorrow! Woo~ Surprisingly i'm excited for it. For the first time i was thinking that it'll be awesome if there is POA lessons tomorrow. Usually i'll whine if there is POA lessons. All because of Cheer Competition.
Ohh, the secOne leaders will be dancing tmr to Jaiho. Omg. It'll be darn weird. The whole school would be watching.

Cool eh.

Chat with Bestie! Haha. i was flooding her with alot of excitement. :D
HAHA. I'm so touched. She posted my story on her blog. Aww~

K i have ntg much to update on and i'm done here. (:

Keep the spirits high

2010-02-15T09:40:00.004+08:00

It has been a long time since i last update my blog.
As smone says, my blog is so boring and dead. tsktsk.
And finally here i am. To wake the sleeping blog up.

So far, everything is going on fine around me.
A lot of things had happened for the past two months of the year 2010.
I started my year great. (:

Started with Adam Khoo Workshop for this month.
It was AWESOME. I have great trainers. Trainers that make you laugh till your tummy hurts.
Trainers that makes you cry too.
So the workshop has ended, so now it is up to me to change or not.

I have not much to update about.

Going off to school later for class cheer practice. (:

Guess so

2009-12-30T21:07:00.007+08:00

Been so long since i last updated.
I'm tired after three days of training.
Spelling or grammar errors, excuse me.
I'm gonna update from A-Z although i'm tired.
Hate long post? i advice you to go off to the next blog. :)

I'll start from retreat which was on 22December2009 till 23Dec. A 2 day 1 night camp.
It was pretty awesome. The start wasnt than it improved.
It turn out to be the most awseome NPCC camp i've been too.
But it turn out to be the most un-expected camp ever. I will nvr ever frget what ever happens in that camp.

Then on the 24 had campcraft training.

25Dec2009 - 27Dec2009 Went off to malaysia with cousins.It was wonderful. Played games and night and won prizes. Hah. Did alot of things there. Suprisingly, he came. O.o Cool.

28th had unarm combat training. I ended up becoming casualtie. The impact was too much for my poor stomach. and i was terribly in pain. After trainig went to Queensway to find for the shop which sells the cheapest shirt. Numerous funny events happened that made Amanda laughed her ass out. Especially the part where thinesh bang into the Mannequin and khoirul shouting like a mad person. After that went to ikea. We didnt see anything. just went in RUN, not walk, arnd. Should see the video at manda facebook. Hilarious.

29 had training again. Morning campcraft frm 8-12 then lunch. Unarm combat frm 1-5. Ohh god it was a nightmare. so TIRING! After training had to stay in np room to saw the poles. At last we didn't saw any and planned to come super early the next day.

(i'm getting more tired tus i'll make tday short)

Today had training. Unarm combat. Everyone's body like jelly. They push us like wow. How to do properly with pressure arnd us. And plus we were like super tired. Who wont. Imagine yourself being thrown fr 3 days straight .-.- Pathetic but true. After training got punishment. Then went to police station fr smthing. Went to polyclinics but ended up not seeing the doctor. Rained so went to Reshawn's house. Homed.

I'm falling asleep soon.
Ohh so tired. very.
idk wht im saying. WOO!

2009 ending soon......!
Bitter sweet memories.

Hell eyes shutting down. Goodnight pea-pole.

I'm falling fr you all over again~

2009-12-14T20:33:00.002+08:00

Mood has been good.
Hah.
But hell.
There's always smthing tht would pull down the mood. Suck.

Cheer up yah. Take things slow. Think before you say smthing yah buddy. I'll always be here fr you. :) Dont be bothered by some other person. Its not worth crying bout it all night long. Waste your time and you would destroy tht beautiful face of yours with fugly eyebags. Laugh it out! Play L4D2! :D Kill the zombies and have rallies. Calm down and take things slow. There may be a reason fr all this. Talk it out. You are a strong girl i know you can. I love you! (L)

I've gain weight.
I've became more tan.
I've not completed my Hol aasign.
Suck
Another round of npcc coming soon. Kruk.

Today went to school fr the sec1 orientation thing.
Then went to Lan to play L4D2. It was awesome man!
Went with Manda, Azlizah, Khoirul, Sean Timuari, JunXuan and TeckWee
We were damn noisy. K not we - me, azlizah and manda to be exact.
Alisa went bck home first after lunch.
After two hours homed.

OMG. i ate McSpicy two times tday. When mum came home she bought me McSpicy. So i have to eat since i was hungry. -.-

[edited 10.23]
Hah. You see! I've told you, waterbuddy! Take things slow! :) Happy you ey. happy water droplets. :) Lols

I miss you. :)

2009-12-11T11:41:00.003+08:00

I want to go for work! :D
For some reasons. Haha.
A cheerful Adibah. :)

It's a kinda off boring day today and also yesterday.
Yesterday went to Jihan's school to buy her books. Thn stayed at the school library fr a while. Kenangan lmer. <3 Although alot has change. Went back home. Arnd 3 went out again to fetch sissy frm the christmas camp. Off to imm then met Cik Yah. Arnd 6 plus went to Mak's house. Ohh god, Abah is sick. Get well soon ya.! Loves. <3 Then homed around 9?

Today. Went to send Jihan early in the morning for another day of Christmas camp. Mum is not at home. Along went off for work. So im home alone. OMG. it is such a BORING DAY. Going off to Town later. Grr.

I have downloaded the whole demi's and selena's album. :D Kak Atiq sent me the whole of Justin's album. Yeah! ^^ But my Mp3 is not working as how i want it to be. Kruk. -.-
Ohh gosh. i'm so bored tht i start talking to myself.

A wish upon a star

2009-12-09T18:00:00.004+08:00

I want you around me now.
Abah, i miss you baaaaaaaaaaaadly!
:(

Yesterday went to Sentosa.
It was a super awesome wonderful day.
Met them at Harbourfront. Meet up thinesh first. Then came Amanda, Azlizah, Khoirul and Alisa. Reshawn came last.
Played beach voleyball. Then swim. Bathed around 3 ++
Went to vivo. Eat. Bought ice cream from ben and jerry.
The went to the rooftop. Camwhored like mad~ :D
Homed around 7?

I'm currently at my uncles house. :)

My mood is getting better each day. :D Yea.!
The next time i'm going school is 14December.
No school for this weeeeek! Finally.

Nothing is right.

2009-12-04T20:21:00.003+08:00

No matter how much fun i had,
the sadness stills linger around me.
This feeling sucks.

Went to wild wild wet today. Sister cant make it, so azlizah replaced her. It would be a waste of ticket. Today was awesome. But the rain came pouring down. Lucky azlizah and i get to ride the Ular-lah fr the last time before we were told to clear off the pool. Awww~ There were tons of Caucasians (concussion eh? rofl) And lifeguards. ^^ We didnt get to go fr the waterworks ride. Sad uh. We were to scared and when we picked up enough courage, it rained -.- So we went to imm to have dinner. Then azlizah went homed. I went to Giant with mummy to get the stuff fr tmr's picnic.

There'll be another picnic tmr. Sian. I dont want to go. But to make mum happy, i decided to follow. As a reward i get to go for the npcc outing. :D

I'm feeling so cheered up now. Outing moved to 8December2009. Mass convo with my kruk mates. Justin Bieber's video melted my heart. Talk to my longlong time missed friend , Ummul Radiah. Haha. :)

So i'll end it here, i wont want to make my nenek wait :D

Chose the wrong way?

2009-12-02T23:18:00.003+08:00

wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf
Everything is going terribly wrong.
I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today! I hate today!

Today went fr training, like AGAIN!And would be the last training until 22december. Looking forward to it. A 2 days one night camp. The very last camp fr the year.

Today's training suck to the fucking core! Sorry to say tht. Before training starts it rains. We had to do CRUNCHES on the wet grasses -.- All of us were like people who just came out from the jungle with mud all over our bck. Had a small tiff during training. About stupid stuff like scissors and pecks(sp?) Too tired? Idk. After training was Awesome. Laughed like there's no tmr. With the same krukmates. I just felt like laughing it out loud, idk why.

Homed. Cousins came over. Here i am.

I'm feeling down. I dont feel secure. What is happening? Idk. It's going too fast. The change of attitude. Paranoid? Not me but people arnd me. Or it's just overly done. I think more to going way over the limit. I believe that evryone has limit to thier patience. But why is everyone being so sellfish? I dont understand. I'm just plainly confused. Where is the old times? It's changing. Because of one person...? IDK. Stop it. I shld STOP thinking bout it.
Come on adibah, CHILL!

Alive

2009-12-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

I feel so restless.
Everything seems so wrong.
I dont know where to start it and how to end it off.
I feel so lost.

Today had training again.
Yesterday was open house.
Tmr training again.
Oh hell.
How i hate camp craft.
SUCKS.

Such a small world

2009-11-20T18:30:00.002+08:00

It's been long since i updated my blog.

School holidays is here but i dont feel like it's a school holiday.
Ohh and i've drop by sissy work place at Siti's Delight which means i get to see S____ :D
I got to see the Vanilla chef too. :)
Wonderful aye.

This week was okay.

Starting off with going fr a npcc meeting on monday.
We ended up not doing anything. Thn off to catch a movie, 2012 at Lot1
I'm wondering would that really happen? Oo it's kinda of scary. Dunia kiamat.
And we ate at Pastamania. Which makes me broke. :/

Tuesday stayed at home. A boring day indeed.

Wednesday went to school for training. We had a retest on tht day for Staff Seargeant.
I got Julang Senjata AGAIN for MOI. Just my luck. I was on probation cause i failed my MOI which i was told to teach julang senjata. -.-
Ohh god.
I'll LOVE that command fr the rest of my life.

Thursday. The day that i will remember. We went to school to submit the NYAA silver form. It was raining very heavily. So we decided to run all the way to the nearest sheltered walkway from school BAREFOOTED. How awesome eh. It was my first ever time doing tht. We were exhausted cause we were runnig, shouting and laughing. Hilarious. After tht met mum at IMM with Alisa to have lunch. :)

And today, again, the whole day staying at home.

I wont be blogging often nowadays. My blog is gonna be dead soon.

Gone

2009-11-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

No more camp this yr! STC was the last camp. And it was super awesome. The group was truly wonderful too. ^^

-

Tday was a badbadbadbad day. A truly ugly day.

To start it off, the moment i woke up mum nagged.
Bus was late resulting me being late to meet my lovelies.
Lessons as per normal. Mt and CS.
Break. Mr Tan came to our table and spit out lovely, very lovely words. -.- Till i was moved to tears.
Lessons.
Then i realized no one will be helping out. I'll have to settle evrything, EVERYTHING myself in order to attend trainings fr tmr and friday.
Thank god i finished 80% of the work, packing,resealing,labeling,weighing. Such an accomplishment tday.
Thanks to the two awesoome teachers and the Sec2 npcc cadets and ONE osl member.
To top it all up, my friend syaing "forget him Adibah. He's no worth it." Gosh, how those words had send me crashing down to the floor. She said tht cause of a reason.

Saying it is waaaaay easier thn it getting done.

Thanks to all the lovely people who had cheered me up. Especially Azlizah, Hafidah and Reshawn. (:

My brain is in a "kruk" stead now. Nothing tht come out sounds good.

Tmr would be a better day, i hope. Obviously early in the morning when i get to knw the truth, it'll suck.

Trust

2009-10-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

there was suppose to be no school tday.
But i ended up going to school at 9.
For OSL meeting and made jelly. ^^

Stayed at the comp lab all the way till 5.
We felt like office workers! Haha.
Doing paper work.
Chatting with each other eventhough the person is sitting right beside you.
We played a game , who can type the lyrics the fastest. :D
It was awesome!
And YAY! I have done all my work! Feel so great^^

Thn went to JE with dwight, alisa and manda.
Make ez link thn went to this building.
Alisa was pissed otw there. Haha.
At last we made it! :)

Ohh and finally , i had fixed thing bck into place with friend. :)
I feel better.
Alot better.

Tmr is prep camp. So i'll be away fr 3 days.
Thn one day after STC!
Weeee~ ^^

I'm feeling damn hyper now.
Ohh and i knw Dwight's dirty lil secret. HAHA.
K i'm done crapping.
I need to put my all the stuff tht is lying arnd my room into the bag.

Where they belong.

2009-10-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

I got bck all my results.
It's really disappointing.
I don't wish to talk bout it anymore.
GAHS.

I'm suppose to be in a plane now flying off to Sabah.
Sigh.
Too bad it's canceled. Sian.
But an one day activity is gonna replace it.

I'm looking forward to my weekends.
OSL prep camp and the Comb UG one day activity.
I hope it'll be fun. :)

Ohh, cousin came bck frm Bali already! :D
And i went to watch Cloudy and a Chance of Meatballs. In 3D.

Tomorrow is suppose to be a school holiday but i still need to go to school.
Fr OSL exco meeting and make cocktails fr Friday.
Sigh.

Time for sleep now. :)

Oh it's 12!
HAPPY 15 BIRTHDAY AZLIZAH, WaterBuddy !
:D

Weeets~

2009-10-19T22:26:00.005+08:00

Exams Finally over.

My weekends / exam break was spent with tremendous fun.

Friday went to watch Imagine That.
Saturday went out to take NCO tee and we try put extension :D
Sunday went out to GodMum's house

Monday which is today, was suppose to go out with Ummul Radiah but plan canceled. I had to go to the cementary and stuff. Then ended up at GodMum house again.
And now i just got a shocking/sad/dissapointing all the bad feeling placed inside news.
LOL.
OBS SABAH is canceled. -.-
The trip that i was waiting for the WHOLE year. STUPID. really really stupid -.-
There should be a good reason for this. Lucky i haven't start packing anything.
May be a good news to some ppl and bad news to others. :/

This is the second camp/trip tht is canceled this year. -.- CRAP.

Well i don't wanna talk bout this anymore. I'm not going to look forward fr anymore camps.

And if i dont go fr the OBS i have to go OSL prep camp and STC.
Sighs.

I feel so sad sad sad sad and disappointing!
Looking to the bright side we get to go to STC with our own area. :D Too bad tht wont cheer me up.

I dont feel like going to school tmr. Getting bck results tmr. Grrrrr~

It's been a long time

2009-10-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

I decided to chge my blogskin. :D

My blog is dead.

I have nothing to blog about.

Till here.

I'll blog again. Soon after exams ended.

Back frm OBS

2009-08-30T20:40:00.002+08:00

OBS was really AWESOME!

I belonged to group Raffles which is part of -
Camp 2 Delta which consist of two other group Raleigh and Magellan(sp?)
I met a lot of wonderful new friends.
I will miss all the stuff except the insect bites. Going fr OBS , you have to be Mentally and physically prepared. Really. One the very first day they will already challenge you physically with th bag packing and stuff. It's hard. You will knw when you go. Night hike was no fun either. You have to carry a bag weighing 8kg plus walking through th forest. Your own torchlight is th only source of light.
Two nigths out in the forest. Peeing in th bushes , well you cant expect having toilets in th middle of a forest. I had to hold my pee fr tht two nights.Lucky during th day i rushed fr toilets whenever i see one. First night my group went to th toilet together. Yes th whole group but of course th girls looked away while the guys try out the new toilet.

Land expedition , you are basically on your own. Having a compass an a map you have to navigate yourself through the forest to reach the checkpoints. I tell you , it's a no easy job. Every where you go it looks the same. Worst you are caryying tht 8 kg bag. Total we walked arnd 8 click plus. Ohh, and back trekking became one of my "hobby".

Sea expedition. Wonderful! Camp 2 Delta kayak 21 click. Kayak through th swamp. The water there , gross. When you are tired you will start to get angry , getting angry makes you scold your own team mates. And tht happens in my Group. But we keeps encouraging each other although we were tired. At last , we splash water onto each other. Banging each others kayak. It works. After kayak had jetty jump. everyone was dead tired.

There's alot of memories tht i would definitely keep with me forever. I'm glad , i gotten an awesome group. :D

over th ranbow i go

2009-08-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

Blogger error again(?)
OMG. it's pissing me off. -.-

My blog decided to hide fr th time being. I just dont feel like publishing it. Myb th skin was too boring fr me i guess? LOL. or i dont want ppl to come and visit anymore? OMG. idk. I'm just sick of th blog , blog skin and stuff i mean. Ohh whtever.

Today had NPCC training. I swear training sucks. If you are in th squad doing drills it'll be great but if you are th one teaching... Un-explainable. Basically me and Thinesh screwed up like no tmr.(wth am i talking?) Welfare , no comments.Not during welfare but th scolding fr welfare. Monkeys? Got th groupings fr OBS. amanda and alisa lands in th same group , Chee Hong(?) While i'm in Raffles. O.O

After training head off to KFC to had brunch , thn off to Alisa's crib to do up th hamper. Azlizah and i get so hyped up cause yknwwho was at home. Fuuh.

I'm feeling super tired now. I'm nervous fr OBS , idk why. Meeting new friends. It's awkward. Wht if you get a not so good grp. Omgahh i'm gonna stick with tht grp fr 5 days(!) So in conclusion i have to love tht grp no matter wht.I hope there's no such ppl like Apple.

Ohh , i'll be awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay fr 5 days! Means no school! YipeeYipeeyaya~
But somehow i'm scared. OSL and stuff , no one handle. Both th heads are going away. WOW. I hope jayraj and dwight will do a GOOOD job.

Switch

2009-08-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

Blogger , getting better. Still i cant upload photos. SUCK.

I've chge all th pink stuff to green. I'm going green. WOO. Only my tagboard seems out of colour. Ahh , heck. i can't find th right colours. My sense of colours , gone. (is there such things?) or myb i wasn't in th mood?
I'm sick of my blog skin. But i have no time to chge. geesh. Should i say lazy? Its gonna take a few hours to choose , edit th skins. Yeah , i'm slow.

This week , normal i can say. I Cant really recall wht happen.

Friday , a fun day i tell you. :D
Went to school with Alisa and Namirah.
i cant remember wht happen during school.
after school Namirah text me . ohh sorry lovely i cant make it. Next time aye :D
OSL meeting , allocations of committee.
Waited fr Lesby. while waiting i got soooo bored tht i irritated Khoirul by forcing him to talk to me and i keep singing. I guess it irritates him alot till he create a water gun out of his bottle and start spraying. ohh gosh , and th battle continues.
Went to MacD. Head home.

Today , went to Mak's house. Thn head to the cementary. Bck to mak's house. Homed.

~~Tommorow~~ Later i'm going to Johor. Ohh fun.

Geesh i'm bored. It's 12am! I'm hungry! Ooooo.

Lalalala , i have no idea why i'm blogging like this. I'm bored i guess.

Do tag me when you visit aye.Thanks :D

What's up?

2009-07-28T21:05:00.004+08:00

My blogger can't work and i dont knw why. It's seriously pissing me off-.- OMG. Now i have to post in this bloody small box. -.- I'm pissed of with the bloody comp too. It keeps lagging. Sheeesh.

Yesterday i didn't went to school. I was not feeling well. i guess. Or myb i was just plain lazy to get up to head fr school. Asked mum wether i could skip school and she agreeed. Weee~ I straight away msged Alisa thn head to bed to continue sleeping. I spent the whole day watching BOF. Ohh and i really fall sick. I got a bad tummy ache.

Somehow i'm getting tummy ache very frequent now. Gosh , idk why. Gah. I hate having tummy ache th most. Cause it will make me end up crying and swallow down pain killers. Sucks.

Tday school as per normal. After school had slef study. Thn followed Pei Xuan to her History remedial. Thn went to D&T block to meet marcus. Thn talked to jayraj. Off to MacD with Pei Xuan to meet Reshawn,Irfan and Hasyeef. Riyaas join us after a while thn Irfan went off. O.o. Homed arnd 5.30+

Smthing really bad happen today. Oh suck! What is your freaking prob manzsx.? Immature. -.- I dont bear any grudges against you and yet you choose it to be tht way. Well it's gonna stick to tht way. Anyways Thanks marcus fr letting me hit you. :D

I'm stilll waiting fr the sec1 reply. Ao far only three had replied. Where alll th other go? Either they copied my num wrongly or they totally nvr get any msg? O.o. i didn;t knw relay system can be this hard. Wht worry me most is tht the last persons havent get the msg yet. omgomg.

Tmr training. COOL. it has been a long time since my muscles get a rest. Now it has to start working up. PT fr tmr followed by welfare. WOOTS. cool.

I'm off. Ohh and pardon me for any spelling mistakes or wht so ever. Cause i'm posting in this bloody small box.

Imagination

2009-07-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

Happy "Friendship" Day Alisa(L)! (:
18 sey. Mcm couple ey.

OMGOMG , i'm effing frustrated with th F comp! Urghs!

Decided to break fast during recess. OMG. bad girlszxs. :D (OMG comp hang again -.-)
After school went to library fr some stuff which is left undone. Lazy to talk bout it cause it makes my heart pain!
Thn went to hang out at Teban with Hafidah. Saw some ppl. Ohoh , i saw someone who looks lke *toot* except tht his older. HAHS! We feel so out of place. Everywhere we go it'll be either KentRidge or Commonwealth or ClementiWoods ppl.

SIGHSIGH.

Talk bout some stuff with alisa. HAHA.We are going out of our mind.Imagine your bestfriend is your liltle brother's stead. haha , tk ley imagine siolzxs. CRAZY. ohh *toot* is flying of to Thailand.AWW. Good luck fr whtever you all are going to do there. One sentence i would not frget alisa , " adibah nk antr *toot*" HAHA! Aper mak kau fikir siah. Berangan jer lh eyhks.

Ohh , i hope H1N1 go far far away soon. Cause i'm starting to miss going to NPCC. why happen now? sighs. I hope kayaking won't be canceled manzxs. If not idk wht to say ready. Why is it so hard :/ sighsigh.

I'm bored. Very bored. I cant sleep. cause i took a short nap juts knw. SILLY.
LALALALALLALA~

Let it shine shine! :D

2009-07-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

Today , school was AWESOME! Really awesome i tell you.

Woke up early morning see more thn one person in th room. It was Kak Fairuz and Kak Yana. i didn't even realise tht they came to sleep over. And there were 4 msges. Usually i wake up if there's a msg. See how sleepy/tired i was.

So me and alisa decide to fast tday to repay bck last year's. I usually see Alisa with her Bandung drink early in th morning but not tday.HAHA. Reach class alisa gave me *toot*. I went high i tell you. I was like OMGOMG! Thanks Fashah and Alisa:D HAHA. I hope Fashah won't tell *toot* bout anything uh. Ohh i found out tht *toot* is *toot* with a Sec3, Chinese:D WOWEEWOO~

Lessons as per normal.Ohh physics test, SCREWED again! How not cool is tht. SIANSIAN!

After school went fr NPCC meeting. Thn homed with Alisa and Hafidah. Didn't wait fr the rest. I feel like going home. Sorry. Btw Plan A canceled. Kesian Hafidah. Next time lh eyhks. Plan B , balik sudah.

Eyhks - somehow remind me of smthing. haha. Yknw I knw lh Alisa eh. Harapan hacur. haha. Bler dpt thu bkn one of th *toot* ppl. haha^^ Tk per tk per.

Nvm i'm off to watch BOF. need to give Alisa Vol 2 by tmr. haha. Btw KimBum is like super CUTE! Nvm Random.

Full Moon.

2009-07-07T21:35:00.003+08:00

I've not updated since school re-open. Well School=SUCKS.

The three days of holidays was well spent.:D

Sat went out with cousins.
Sun went to cousin's fiancee(sp?) house at Malaysia.
Monday tour arnd Singapore with NP mates to complete th project. It was really awesome! especially when we visit th little children museum. It was super fun , bck to th past baybeh.Went to China Town>Kampong Glam>Bugis>Fort Caning Park>Singapore River , Central>Lot 1. From 9am all the way till 7.++. It was super tiring i tell you although Singapore is a small tiny winy country. And ohh yah , we visited Chinese temple,Indian temple and Mosque. Multi Racial uh. LOL.

Today went to school earlier just to complete Maths Homework. School today was fun. Alisa msg_____ to ask fr_____ smthing during MT. HAHA. I went so high knowing i could get_____. We even called when _____ was sleeping. haha , bgus kau threaten die utk buang die nyer____ die threaten utk buang____Cool kaper. ^^ hahaha.WOOTS. I cant stop____at____. Recess was tiring. Runing after Thinesh. -.- Then i cant remember wht happen. Ohh break time , WE WENT HIGH! got the speces but no eyes.HAHA.*inside jokes* Homed.

Tmr is Youth Day. It's effing pathetic -.- 35 min of "celebration". Sitting in class to hear ppl talk through PA system. Youth day has been the best celebrations ever in school. Thanks to H1N1. And CCA is canceled too just bcause of H1N1. STUPID. I wont let this spoil my wonerful mood i have today :D

Ohh yah , i hate ppl who criticise ppl just bcause they are jealous or smthing. If you can do better thn say lh. -.- wait , can you even pass the trials? DOTS!

Lost.

2009-06-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

STC canceled. WTH. The boys are happy with it but the girls are not.SIAN! The boys are happy with it just because they can play soccer? LOL. I was looking forward to STC since the start of th holidays. So i can meet pear,cherry,grape*inside joke,laughs* NOT. I want to meet my area 18 friends. Ohhh well , next time? When? Sheeeeeseh... I hope it's postponed not canceled.If not now i'll be busy packing my bag. Thanks to the H1N1.

But why is school re-opening as per normal? -.- i need more time to do homework. I start doing my homework seriously starting of this week. After all tht had happened i cant think.I still haven't complete th online assignment.Once i use th comp i'll be distracted doing other stuff. And that's why i have been refraining myself frm using th computer.

I've checked my activities board. Currently i'm not looking forward to any activity at all. Just school. and more school.

Gotten NCO/CL post. I dont knw whether i shld be happy or sad with the post. I've gotten the post in training. Although it's my first choice somehow i regret choosing it. Idk why. I shld have put Welfare as my first choice for certain reasons. Stupid me. People who are not in Np wont get it. Like duh.And obviously i would only be an Ass commander.lol. Nvm , at least i get to be commander mext year. :D
Dont be sad with your post aye lesby. i'll help you , i promise. :)

And to tht squirrel frm bikini bottom namely Sandy please if you have grudges against us, please do come to us. Please , seriously why shld we reflect on our self. we had enough.-.- We wont bother you if you follow all the rules in NPCC. seriously. You'll get wht i mean if you become an NCO next year. You will understand why we did all tht. Come on please. We seriously wont mind if you dont perform fr us during our POC. It wont kill us and it will not make us sad too. Instead you should feel sorry for yourself cause you dont appreciate wht people do to you.Ohh nvr mind.my comp wont have virus talking bout you. Cause i dont owe tht cool computer tht you have(: So please reflect on yourself before you ask others to reflect aye. Stop saying ppl suck. You might nvr knw tht you suck too. And every single girl have a bitchy attitude by default. i agree all four of us are bitches and so are you. :) If you have a problem with extra trainings it's not our say.It's th TO's or th CI's. get it.so if you're not happy with extra training go find th TO not us. Ty.

Number please? :D

2009-06-17T22:18:00.004+08:00

I'm lazy. And so this will be kind off a short post i guess. HAHA.

Today had AEM.
Early in the morning we had Mr Muscle. haha!(inside joke)
During AEM.It was crazy.Really crazy.Especially after the head bang with amanda. Everyone was like OOOOOHHHH,wht was tht.Of course laughter burst out after tht. HAHA. The games was all pretty challenging. After lunch had amazing race. My group consist of riyaas,amanda and stella. Running arnd tht big school was kinda off tiring. Especially if one of your team mates hates walking.haha.
After AEM. it's worst. Everyone can't sit still in th bus.hahha. and amanda wont stop singing th Numbers. it's irritating me!

After AEM went to Mac. O.O we did riyaas a bigbig favour. haha.
It benifited me too. I've met a sweet girl named Rinie! :D hahas. She's awesome to talk to.

OMG!I'm irritated by Amanda's numbers! (: And my shoulder muscle or whtevr you called tht is hurting like F. thanks ah to ppl who did it. i'll swear i'll pinch whoever do th same thing again tmr.

wht am i talking? ok , nvm. It's total crap(:

No idea

2009-06-14T21:55:00.005+08:00

A friend

Someone to laugh with,perhaps to shed some tears
A person who's been with you all through the years.
Someone to shelter you from days that are cold
A shoulder to lean on, a warm hand to hold.
An arm to catch you if you slip and fall
An ear for your problems whenever you call.
Someone to share your giggles and your screams
A person to tell all your secrets and dreams.
Someone to hug you when you're happy or sad
To just be there in the good times or bad.
A person with whom you don't have to pretend
These are the jobs of a very best friend.
Michele Davis

And i believe I've gotten the right "worker" for that :D In fact not only one but a few more.

To NurAlisaNabilla thanks for always being there for me. You're awarded the best worker ^^ hahaha.We've been through thick and thin without fail.And i'm proud we didn't have much misunderstandings for the past few months. I'm glad and i love you!Our friendship is stronger than diamond aye. Awwwww , sweeet nyer aku.hahahahha.Anyway thanks for waiting. yknw wht i mean *winkwink*

Ohh and i Love AmandaLesby too yeah. ^^

Back to the topic , today didn't do anything much. People coming over my house has been a normal thing.Like everyday.I'm happy about that.At least i could occupy myself.A week had pass.Time pass so fast.And i'm missing him like BADLY. I don't wish to talk about it anymore.

Tmr AEM starts.At last i get to breathe the fresh air outside. Fresh new start i guess. Perfectly new. And i hope Alisa and amanda would help me out with it(:

Terrible , miserable

2009-06-10T13:28:00.004+08:00

I HATE people asking me over an over again what had happened. Shheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh , don't ask me tht ques cause it'll make me recall everything again.

I'm sorry friends. I was totally wrong. I guess i really have the bestest friends ever. The most touching and caring friends i ever had. Myb i was too paranoid. I shldn't have said wht i have said. I feel bad,truly. Myb i'm having the few worst day of my life tht my mind is running wild. I didn't knw all of you were feeling sad too. I'm sorry. Youg guys are the bestest , greatest freinds i ever had , and i say this from the bottom of my heart. And i hope this won't chge.And i hope that everything would go bck to normal. (:

And so , cousin sleep over my house for two nights already.At least the house is not so quiet.I've started sitting down doing my homework. It s-u-c-k. Gee , i'm bored now.

Well i've got nothing else/don't knw to say.

I miss my wonderfulmarvellousgreatesbestest friends , i cant wait to see them on i dont knw when. STC(?) , which is at end of the month.Irritatting

I miss dad tons! i hope his doing fine.I miss him but i'll never get a chance to see him ever again.I REALLYREALLREALLY mis him like truckloads.and it's not even a week since his lost. I miss dad! Urgh~:/ :(

Terrible

2009-06-09T11:42:00.006+08:00

I had the most badworstmiserablesadregretfulSAD day of my entire life.
Noting have been more worst than that. Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh,

Allah loves him more than we do i guess.Why must he leave me at such a young age.I still need him by my side.Why must he go so fast. Without a sign at all.BUT WHY??! Why must he go so fast? Sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh , i got nothing else to say. I HATE this week I freaking hate this week. I HATE THIS WEEK SO BLOODY MUCH!!!!!!! Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!~I guess i would not be me anymore :/ I would never ever be me again. IDK why.I don't even feel like living in this world ever again. I don't even feel like going to anywhere.I don't even feel like going to school anymore! I don't even feel like doing anything other than just sitting in my room and just stare into space. I cry to sleep every single day. No one else would understand my feelings. NO ONE!Why must life be so unfair!! I hate my life right now. -.-My cousins,uncle and aunts have been the one keeping me alive.They were all ohh so caring towards me. My friends; Amanda, Alisa, Reshawn, Khoirul, Azlizah, Ting yan and much more. Teachers too.Thanks for the care.I really aprreciate it.But like wht Ms tan said nothing ppl say to me would make me feel better.sheeesh.If you dont get wht i'm talking about nvm.But don't come to me asking wht happen. I hate to answer tht ques the most. And if you know you keep it to yourself , Please.There's one JERK who dont know how to keep things to himself.-_______- bler aku terigt die i feel like KILLING him!!Somehow i still cant accept the fact wht had happen to me. I don't believe this. I hope I'm in a dream. But no I'm not.How i wish everything tht i'm facing now is a dream. Then somebody would come waking me up. Then evrything get bck to normal. OR OR how i wish i could reverse time. Then i can see the symptoms. But hell , nothing of such happen in REALITY. This is reality and nothing i can do to bring the dead alive. And how i wish i can bring fairy tales into reality.Whereby the Princess's tears fall at dead prince and the prince come to live again.

Thanks friends for whtever you guys have done.I appreciate it like TONS.

But i hate to say this. I feel like no one cares about me anymore.I thought i had the bestest friends in the world but no. You guys seems like not to care about me anymore. It seems like i've not existed in your life.No one understands how i feel right now,It's hard to describe.But where is everyone when i needed them the most.Where is evryone?! I feel so sad , not even a single one ask me how i am feeling today or whtever.Sheeeeesh , myb they forgoten about me.Myb they forget tht i even exist.I dont have the mood to go to school ever again.I just feel like dying! When you all came to visit wht did you guys talked about?talked about the funny stuff tht i dont even understand cause i wasn't even there.I feel so left out from the world.I feel so life less. This is the time where i need my friends the most but all of them is no where to be found.When i msg-edno one repkied.I know now i'm not equal with evryone in school.cause i no longer have a father.Which everyone in school have.Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeesh. I cant explain how i feel into words anymore.I rather keep evrything o myself than to tell anyone.Cause i dont trust anyone at this moment.For all you knw the person who you trust the most suddenly gone missing or ignoring you. Even your bestfriends is not replying or wht so ever , reply with cold msges.I feel so not needed anymore.I feel like vanishing into thin airs.Why is evrything happening to me at once?Or is it tht i'm just paranoid?Seriously , i will never ever taken into promises anymore. Myb i'm just paranoid,paranoid,paranoid.But i can feel.Myb really my freinds is ignoring me cause i dont ahve wht they have.

I just feel like crying and crying.But i guess my tears have dried up cause i cant even cry anymore.

I miss my friends like tons :/ But i dont know whether they still remember me.Sheeeeeeeeeesh. ):

Blue sky

2009-06-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

School holidays is a total bore. I hve nothing to do.Computer , eat , sleep , watch tv, Talk on the phone -__- I didn't get freedom fr this hols cause my results SUCK.

Reshawn have been my major source of reducing my bore room. And yes he can be a major irritation too. He can be the one who makes me mad the most and the one who make me have my laugh. WEIRD , i knw.

And ohh yah , fr those who went fr the shoot. CONGRATS! :D Although we didn't win but at least i knw you guys did your best!

LMSC tmr.Bonding camp day after tmr. Cool. Thn holiday assignments next. SIAAAAAAAAAAAN -.-
Why must we do homework.

I dont have anyhting else to blog , I hope Click 8 can make it to the outing. We can together throw dion into the sea ^^ Like wht we promised since last year -.- I hope this outing will "happen" we planned to many and all end up not "happening" Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh.

Ohh yah , slow and steady jayraj. HAHS! :D Everything is going to be fine aye.lol.

Ok , i'm bored, my blog post is boring.Today was a total bore. sighs.

Ohh god! I just remeber i need to prepare uniform! DARN!

G2g , blog soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon. Keep th tag rolling in aye

WAIT , before i go.
HAPPY 15TH BELATED BDAY TO JAYRAJ AND RESHAWN!
i knw you guys love th cake ^^

And so here's the video tht made us laugh till we cry duting POC. Only ppl in NPCC would get it more.
The video upload so slooooooooooooooooooow -.- this suck. And so i end up not putting up the video. -_______________________-

A-W-A-Y!

2009-05-28T21:10:00.004+08:00

I'll be away for quite some time.
Away for NCO camp from 29-30
And the busy schedule i have
Be back when time permits.

Do keep the tags rolling in yeah. :D
Thanks ^^

O-V-E-R! :D

2009-05-23T18:00:00.005+08:00

(try spotting me ^^ , i can't even spot myself -.-)

WARNING! It's gonna be long.

Finally , POC is O-V-E-R!
I had one of my happiest/saddest/hyper-iest/hardest day ever yesterday.Sound weird but yah , it's true.Sad because now the Sec4's officially steps down. No more seeing them during training.Hardest because of the screw ups and all.And yes, the Aces gets really hyper yesterday after everything was over.That made us really happy. Maybe happy because we are a NCO now(?) And with that stress is rolling in.

The start of the POC was un-fun.We had to rush with the deco and have a rehearsal within tht one hour.Then the combine sports camp people come flooding in. While having our rehearsal eyes were on us.It made me nervous. Rushed with th deco and the guest reception.Cam-whored a little.Hahaha.Then the certs wasn't ready.So we had to change th whole plan.I was running arnd looking fr Jayraj and all. Alot of unpleasent things happen before the concert start.

The guest was late.Super late.We had to start the concert before half of the guest come.Weird.But we didnt have much choice the GOH had arrived.Azlizah and I was scared that the guest will not come for our un-arm combat performance. But they did! Just in time.We totally screw up OUR performance , the one where we sing.LOL.The video tht the Sec4 made was FUNNY and CUTE.It's funny to only those who really understands how NP life is.Everyone was laughing like MAD. Azlizah laugh till she cry.Our video , thanks amanda. We felt like crying wathching it.But i dont knw how the Sec4 felt.I hope they feel the same.

After th concert, clean up.Then had refreshment.The Sec3 was all not hyper.Instead our faces was scared.We were like saying be mentally prepared to get punished.Such a stupid thing.Thn Insp Zaki came to us and asked wht's with us. So we told him and he laughed out loud. After refreshment send the Sec1 and Sec2 home. Sec 3 stayed behind to finish up th food. Some things happen and i dont wish to talk about it. While eating we were like mad People.Really mad. Under the table party huh.^^We should do it some more ah.I'll be glad.

After eating the guys went off to play soccer at parade square.This is where the ACES get reallyreallyreally crazy! We start doing the "skolah sedia" thingy at the grand stand.HAHA.Officer Aisyah took the video. We saw shoes flying arnd.^^ Ohh , and the ball they kick went up to the second level.And there's more FUNNY stuff that happen.Amanda's ambush! The four languages we said fr drinking water. Challenging each other. It was a crazy day. Especially the part where Inspt Zaki and Inspt Haireel find thier missing stuff. I was the first victim -.- HAHA! From the parade square we continued till NPCC room. :D DOWN! ^^

After that went to Mac.It was super full so we decided to go Carpark. All the inspt joined. We had "Campfire" up there. Did the groupings for NCO camp there.And they planned to go out on 7TH JUNE! I agreed readily!!!!!! OMGah! Talked alot. Meet wht time , at where and all. STUPID!I FEEL SO STUPID. Went home arnd 9.00++ with inspt Zaki and azlizah.I was really shocked when i get to find he stay at Clementi. NVM. So took the same train as him. Talked. Hahaha , over the mooooooooooooooooooooon about smthings.

And as i was lying on the bed , i realized tht my cousin wedding was on the 7th. So i get up from bed and i asked mum

Me: wht if i nvr go fr the wedding?
Mum: NO! You must go.
Me: i got camp , thn NPCC outing.
Mum: NOOOOOOOOOOOO! Dont need go NPCC outing. You wont die if you miss one outing right.
Me: Ok.NVM -.-

SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN! How can i frget.OMGah.I feeel so sad,I just hope tht they can chge the date. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease! Damn , if they cant thn i cant say anything.

Ohh btw , before i end.A little something fr my beloved NCOs 08/09.
I'm gonna miss you guys.I knw we didnt really have a great POC for you guys yesterday.Evrything was kinda off last minute , screw ups and all. I hope you guys had a great time yesterday.Just know tht i'm gonna miss you guys ALOT. The crazyness during ATC , hanging out after NPCC and much more.Thanks for guiding us.Our squad wouldn't be as how we are without your encouragements.The three years i had was really awesome. You guys are the best NCO i ever had, seriously. Good luck fr O-levels. And i hope to see at least one or more of you to come bck myb as CI or senior NCO.I LOVE YOU! :D

Whatever -.-

2009-05-21T19:10:00.005+08:00

POC IS TMR!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ Both excited and nervous.

Ohh well , after school went to prepare th stuff fr POC.And sumpah ape jdi tak beeeeeeeeeeeest betuuuuuuuuuul! Thanks eyh Sab.Zilah and Shariff too.Terima kasih bgi aku advice^^ And alisa accidently cut my finger.BEST. Well , not her fault anyway.Dont need slash my hands.Hahaha.jkjk.

After completing the stuff , again aku nangis lgi.Weee! Beeeeeeeeeeeeest.Azlizah jdi punching bag.haha.Thanks babe.After tht Alisa had to go home , so left me and azlizah.She said we shld get some ice-cream to cooool me down. So off to Mac.Thn Fatin Namirah came to us. talked, Laughed really loud , Cam-whored, and share secrets. Hahahas.Azlizah knw wht i want and i knw wht she wants. lol.

Homed. Saw one of my friends.Fwuuuuuuh , Sumpah he cheered me up. Thn talked to my older sister.She's the best place fr you to complain to.Geeeeesh

Bye. Need to turn in early fr tmr.I hope evrything go on smoooooooooooooothly.

(pardon to those who cant read malay , i just need to express in malay)
Grrr.Mcm whtever lh kau eyh.Perangai mcm aper.Tk perlu siolzxs.Merepek. Tk hbis buat aku marah. Nk jdi IC sgt asl tk jdi siolzxs. Nk jdi sgt kn , jdi ah.Tk perluuuuuuuuu ah.Asik nk dgr cakap kau jer.Kau pikir kite sape.-.- retard arsehole. Ape kiter nyer idea smua salah kau nyer smua btul. Mcm kau plak yg IC eyh. Kawan baik konon.Whtever eyh.

Pathetic shiatzxs.

2009-05-17T15:38:00.005+08:00

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeesh , my muscle ache is like killing me. I even find it hard to take off my own clothes.All thanks to un-arm combat.OMG. Tmr there will be training followed by tues thn wed.One day off. Thn friday , the REAL thing.Omg , i hope i can survive till tht day. i dont even have the strength to do pumping anymore.And the insp still ask us to do pumpings.Alot.OMG.I don't knw why someone keep staring at me.Do you have a problem or smthing. Azlizah shld knw cause she realize it tooo. WEIRD.

Tuesday is NPCC day.So people , you will see blue ppl at the side of the hall or myb infront of the parade square.We have to put on the unifrom fr the whole day.OMG. it's gonna be super HOT! and uncomfortable. And Insp Zaki wants our Uni to be in TIP-TOP conditiong.lol.I dont knw wether i will have the strength to polish my boots. And since i collected my new uni yestdy i'm gonna put it on , on tuesday. This means i have to sew on the side thingy.Urgh.

I just realise i have NCO camp on 30th May.Damn it! I want to go fr the carnival. Damn. Sorry Nad.Myb nxt time eyh.haha. As in not nxt time go to th carnival nxt time go out.lols.Btw she msg-ed me arnd 2 plus.Saying there's someone infront of her.Random siolzxs kau Nadia.

Btw i dont get it. You called me your bestf but do you even treat me as one? are you trying to say tht bestf is th one who's like a temporary friend cause you dont hve other friends? Retard , not you retard but th statement tht i just said.LOL. you would rather tell things to your CLOSE friends tht your bestf.Weird ah.LOL.

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[You dont have to cont reading cause from here onwards it's crap]

OMG , i'm super bored.Darn.I was soooo busy just now and now i have nothing to do.I just finished blog-hopping.OMG.Hahaha.i drop by someone blog.Omg she said tht she gets angry when she sees smone face.Cause her crush lkes tht girl.LOL.I dont get it.Why must you hate her.Love cant be force.No offence.

I just remember.Tmr is Monday.There will be no school but there will be training.OMG. I hate going fr un-arm combat training.It makes me SICK. I haven't even recover.AyeAye. Need to complete evrything by tmr.And i dont want tuesday to come.I dont want to see my Marks.I'm sure i flunked alot of my test.DAMN.By wednesday , bonding camp proposal.COoL eyh?lol.

ARGH! Aku malas nk pegi training besok lah! sheeeeeesh. OMG i'm hungry , i want some cookie.lol.Ryhmes.Ohh yah , i cant waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait fr FRIDAY! yipeeyay.

I'm bored wht can i do?tell me.I need some entertainment.HAHA.My younger sis is irritating me.HAH.But i still love her altough she ALWAYS makes me mad.haha.lol.=.=She's with tons of small plaits hair.IDK how to describe it.But it's kinda of nicee on her.I'm bored. If you read till here you have just wasted your time. It's full of crap you see.

Enough crapping. I'm offf :D

I MISS YOU

2009-05-11T17:51:00.004+08:00

Geeesh , i hate the feeling of boredness.It makes my mind fly farfarfar awaaaaaaaaaaaay~
And so chatting with HafidahBAB and Lesby! At least i wouldn't be tht bored.Tmr is POA paper.I'm still here blogging.Fwuuuh , it's some sort of stress relieving thing.haha.

I'm gonna be away fr a very long time, i guess.Mid year is here.Fr the rest of the week.After Mid-year ,POC at the same time OSL bonding camp(!)How are we gonna split ourselves?Both are just as important. POC , i hope it wouldn't screw up.I really want to do smthing great fr my beloved Sec4's^^ OSL bonding camp too. I want evrything to go on smooooooooooothly.POC, we haven't even do a SINGLE thing.How are we suppose to do evrything in one week(!) Invitation cards,dance,guestbook,decorations,un-arm combat and the list goes on.GAGS.Proposal fr OSL Bonding camp it suppose to be handed up by this week.I think it's IMPOSSIBLE.The camp is like nextnext week.Geee~ Tough.After mugging fr exams i can't enjoy life because there's other stuff pilling up.I'll be equally busy.I just hope time will move sloooower.thus,there will be more time to prepare. Geeeesh ,

Although with all this busy scheldue i cant wait fr POC training.Un-arm combat training. Lesby would be the happier one.She can throw me arnd again(!)How wonderful.NOT!I guess my body will ache all over fr the next week.Like every single day there'll be training.Then we still have to plan stuff.Again how busy.But i can't wait fr training Npcc training. i miss them all.And i seriuosly hope tht things would be as usual. Ya Allah , please grant me this wish.I miss them helll loads!Lesby should know wht i'm talking bout.*smiles*

And so frm today onwards i think my blog would look dead.I will not hve time to update.Keep the tags rolling in.(If you readers are not busy:D)

So, see tht picture right up there.That's how i'm feeling right now.Geeeesh , but whtever.I would not follow my feelings.I'll try my very best to put a SMILE on my face. And of course , everyone should knw that a smile doesn't mean happiness, sometimes.Ohh crap , wht am i talking bout.I should be strong(: I don't want people arnd me to feel sad too.

I'm waiting fr your msg evrery single day.I miss you.I miss the old times. Since when did i not care about you?I'll try my very best to reply your msges evrytime.And guess wht i dont think you know.Instead you said tht i ignored you.since when?Frget it , you are somebody else's now.Although it's hard to get over you , i'll try my very best.I would one day , i hope.
(i think amanda is gonna print preview this thing, right?:D LOLS.)

I was waiting fr you.

2009-05-04T19:06:00.003+08:00

I'm 15 at last. weeeee~
Happy Birthday to me.(:

And so , i didnt have time to use th comp yesterday as i was at aunt's house all day long.
actually it wasn't all day long. lol.

Went aunt to many places yesterday in godmum's car.Thanks all my Cuzzies fr bringing me out yesterday.We sure do have alot of fun yesterday. ^^

And thanks Ty , alisa and amanda fr the 12.00am msg.I love you guys aye.Hahaha
Got this camera tht print out your photo instantly frm my cousin.COOL.
A surprise from all my cousins.
And to those who wishes thanks alot aye^^

Enough bout yesterday let's talk about today.

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Went to school as per normal. With flu.
Had to wait at th waiting area thingy.It's seriously a waste of time.I was forced to go home but i insisted not going home.HAHA.I wouldn't want to miss my precious maths lesson. *wide grins*

Recess! I was suprised.Really suprised.I got this large eeyore thing frm Click 8 or shld i say ~~Click 7~~(?).Thanks alot guys! it's really nice to hug it.Hhahaha.I love you guys truckloads manzxs!
Thanks for everything guys. You all nvr fail to mke my life colourful .haha(:

After school waited fr Amanda.Have lunch.Went to block. Homed.

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Mum was suprised to see me carrying such a bigbig bear. Hahaha.She too keep holding th eeyore.Mum said it was very nice.hahaha.Told ya!

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Andd ohh yeah.There's this person.In her blog.She keep writting things to insult ppl.OMG! Is she perfect or smthing? Whtever! Lke seriously.You ain't perfect and you ain't an ANGEL.awwwww. =.= Despo huh? You are the despo one girl. Every post also got smthing got to do with ur crush.Ohh so whtever! Why ont you write down th names? You are a childish girl manszs.And your pictures.It's lke OMG! Btw you owe a bigger mouth thn us aye. Physically.

2009-04-26T14:29:00.009+08:00

Gee , Bestfriends?
I don't think so. -.-

I dont have mood to blog and do anything else.LOLS.

( edited,4.29 pm)
I'm feeling slightly better now.

I'm missing somebody badly.
I need him, but why he just can't get it?
I still like/love(?) him.

And to Alisabestie, thanks fr asking.Weee
But i'm sorry,I just don't fell like telling anyone anything right now.

still , thinking bout you just make me sad.
I don't want to be a sad Adibah.
Cuase when tht happen i won't be laughing and i'll just stay quiet all day.
geeeee.

And now , i still dont have th mood to talk to anyone. :/

NPAP 09 (:

2009-04-19T15:20:00.005+08:00

NPAP IS OVER!
weeeeeee~
I'm both happy and sad.
I'm gonna miss the times we had together. Contigent 5 rock hell lot!
Especially my marching partner , Barney!
HAH!

And so , NPAP ends yesterday.
I was super nervous and excited.
Nervous cause i'm scared tht i'll do smthing wrong excited cause my mum is there watching me!
I feel so proud of myself cause i manage to endure.
we had one dry run before the real parade.Th sun was shining so brightly.It was super hot till i felt like crying.My boots were burning like hell.i wasted my effort polishing th boots.And worse i was pespiring like i was having a bath.
ALOT of ppl fall out during th dry run.
After dry run we had break thn we changed to Full-U. Everyone polished thier boots in the classroom.One cloth was shared with 4 ppl.Kiwi was passed arnd.It's kinda of fun polishing boots with so many ppl.hahaha.
FINALLY,it's our parade.
After the parade we went back to our classrooms at HTA.Lucky us , our contigent didn't had any major screw up. No one fall out^^ Yay-ness.WE ROCK YEAH!
We camwhored.Alot. we took pictures as a whole contigent with Sir Terrance.(picture above)

OMG ,I will miss the times we had break rushing to get drink , bus ride with Area 18 peeps. Although we got closer to everyone towards the end. The laughter tht filled th air after every training as we tried to cheer each other as we're tired. Got scolding.Improving the belok.Spotting each other mistakes.

And so , we went reached Hong Kah at 9.++.Camwhored again!Now with Area 18 mates.
Then went to IMM.
Met mum at JE interchange.The mum help me bring home my bag and uniform cover.
Eat at LJS. Arnd 10.45 went home.
Thanks reshawn fr waiting with me fr my bus.And sorry cause you wait fr me thn you missed th last bus\: I feel bad.
Reached home at 11.++.Dad fetched me at the bus-stop cause i was scared to walk home alone.
:D

And so now , My bck is aching,my forehead has two colours thanks to the beret,LOLS.

I will not frget yesterday manscxz! Meet you guys again! SOON! At STC.And i hope i meet barney on Teachers Day.

I need to go.Cause mum is forcing me to eat.And thn i'm off to god mum's hse.Thn i'll sit on the massaging chair.Weeeee , my back is seriously aching.

Get a life dude!

2009-04-09T21:03:00.005+08:00

Currently talking to Thinesh and amanda otf.
They seems to not agree on running first or simple PT first.
LOLS.

Today went to school as per normal.
Had POA re-test. I still cant do the test.I really do suck at that PARTICULAR subject.
Thn went to Lot1.Met reshawn there.Thinesh cant mke it.and jayraj got tuition.

Yesterday skip NP training. Had NPDP. It was fun and very KECOH!
Met tons of new friends^^
After tht went to WestMall Koufu.
Homed
Thn azlizah fall on the escolator. It's damn funny.Hhaha.She cried not bcause of the pain but because she laughed.Weird.
Reached hme at 9.30++.

Weeeeet~

Saturday hve training frm 9.00-4.00
9.00-12.00 for POC
12.00 to 1.00 our break , And so we decide to go for our slow jog here thn hve lunch.
1.00-4.00 Un arm combat training.
COOL^^ I'm looking forward to do unarm combat man.Hahaha.

And ohh yah ,Insp Haireel found my blog. I hope they dont find anything offending on wht i write bout NP. Hahaha . Shocked.

Lastly , i got the feeling tht WE are falling apart , somehow.
We're not together as one lke before.I dont get it. Bacuse of different ppl. Drifted away. Misundersatndings. "Cold" fight.Hate.
When will all this stop? I cant stand this any longer. And i knw all of us can feel it as well.

School , school ,school

2009-04-06T19:47:00.006+08:00

I've got the urge to blog somehow.
i dont know why.

Amanda's bck tmr!
YAYNESS^^
i'll wait for you till you msg me when you reach Singapore.
I cant wait to meet you on Wednesday and we'll have breakfast together. :D

Today went to school reluctantly.I'm super lazy to go to school. Rushed to the shop to buy alisa the "egg" early in the morning.
Had lesson as per normal.
Physics test=DISASTER
i dont even know how to answer a single question.Damn.

I'm not improving at all. I'm failing all my subjects.I really need to buck up on my studies for Mid-Year.If not i can stop dreaming going to OSL china.

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh

Chatting with GAYshawn currently. Again he made me smile :D Thanks dude! And ohh yah ,

GOOOODLUCK RESHWAN CHOO WEI MING FOR YOUR LIFE SAVING TEST TMR! ( i hope it rains) ^^

I MISS AMANDA!

2009-04-05T18:43:00.006+08:00

In every life there is one great love
one unforgettable heartbreak
and too many times it's the same person

I saw this quote while i was surfing on the net.And yes , i believe it's true.

It has been a long time since i updated my blog.
Its April now. I had a good first day of April. And i hope it will last throughout the month but i think it's impossible. :/

I miss Amanda badly.She's away. My CS had been different without her.NPAP is different without her as her position is beside me. Recess is different. We usually go recess in three.And i had no one to talk to bout him.

Geeeesh.

Thanks Reshawn fr cheering me up everyday.

Yesterday has NPAP.Its super tiring. I bet we will stand longer on the actual day. We stand fr a very long time under the scorching hot sun. Frankly , i feel like squatting down and the red cross team wil then come to my rescue.Not because i'm sick,but im tired. If i do tht, it'll be a disgrace.

I dont think on the actual day it'll be as tough.Cause parade starts and 6.00 . I hope MrSunshine will be kind to us :D And i hope the guest of honour speech would not be very long.

Why must life be so unfair?!

Have you ever been in the state tht smone is bugging you fr and 'answer' but you're so confuse tht you dont even knw wht to say.You just hope to ignore this but the more you ignore the more you'll be thinking?
At one point of time he can say he loves you the most and cant frget you and in another point of time he's the one who leave you alone.
So , wht will you do if you were in this situation?

And
have you been in a situation tht your closefriend is changing because of someone else?
and tht someone else is a person tht you dislike?
what will you do? Ignore it or wht?
yes it's his/her choice but you knw smthing bad is going on with the person and you cant bring yourself to tell him/her. Cause you're afraid tht person will be sad or smthing
So will you tell or not if you're in my shoes?

if you dont get it , me as well.
Cause i'm just plain confused. And it really makes my head spin.
I need a break.

I don't need you to judge

2009-03-26T17:51:00.003+08:00

Hey ,
I'll be away for THREE days going to annual camp(!)
I definitely look froward fr th WELFARE , zilah ! XD
Annual Camp will be very different. Usually i would talk to Nabilah before going to sleep in th bunk without fail.Now , she's th ACC.Hahaha , LOLS!

Today went to school as per normal.Except with more tiring body.
Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh.
Annual Parade at HTA is VERY fun yesterday and it's also VERY tiring.

Woke up late in th morning.Mum ahd to shout at my ear before i could get up frm bed.And worst,tmr there'll be another training AND annual camp(!)
My body will be like dying by Sunday.
Next week still have to continue with POC and OSL recriutement.
DARN!

I'm scared fr Annual camp.At th sme time i look frward to it.I knw it's kinda of a hell camp or smting?I HATE PT! it'll definetly be veryvery tough.Annual Camp=TOUGH. Cheeeeeeeeeese!Why th inspectors can't mke it fun all th way? LOLS , not gonna happen.
If possible,i want to try to survive th whole camp wo becoming cassualties. ^^

OK , thn home with Hafidah , bab member ^^
Went to IMM , thn otw there got this one old uncle talk to her.HAHAHA.Damn funny siah!
Eat lunch , talk bout Cambodia.And i remebered about Seritu :( I MISS HER!*sobs*
Homed.
Met Afrina and her friend.Damn kecoh and funny siah. HAHAHA!Long time nvr meet her ready.^^

I miss warm hugs^^ especially frm Nabilah , Zilah and Halijah. hah!
I feel lke putting my blog on private fr now(?)
I'm lazy to talk to tht annoying person -.-
I miss Hairina and more effing alot(!)

I think i have to go now.I need to polish my boots , pack my bag , prepare uniform and study fr chemistry test(?)

I want to get out of here.

2009-03-22T18:52:00.004+08:00

My blog is like dead.
Holidays are meant for us to enjoy but guess i didn't
I feel like holidays just started but infact in is already ending.Now it had ended.Tomorrow school will be starting already.
Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh~
I'm lazy to go.

Homeworks are always holidays spoiler.LOLS.
I'm getting annoyed by someone.I don't feel like talking to him/her anymore.
I'm not putting on weight.I want to put on weight!
I dont know why but i MISS the Sec4's NCO.It has been a long time since we hang out together.
POC is coming soooooon.And that's mean we are becoming NCO.Another commitment.
Annual camp is coming soon.I'm scared.But i look forward to it(?)
Another camp(!?)
I miss ALISA! and Click8!

I'm mad/sad(?)I just found out tht ______ has a new gf? LIAR!
Guys are just typical LIARS!-.-
So much for waiting(!)Fish!
If i didn't meet you tht day i dont think you'll tell me.

I did nothing during the holidays. As in nothing new.
Go to god-mum house , hang out, homework , sleep.
The trip to WildWildWet was canceled.
Due to i dont bother to say.

Today went to meet amanda.It was totally last minute.I leave the house arnd 3.++
She forget to bring home her math textbook.
Met her at Je library.Ting Yan , Jerwin and Praval was there too.
They sort of brighten up my day.
Praval you are such a funny soul!MrFunny(?)LOLS.Myb you talk to yourself often.haha.

I received a msg from someone.^^
I swear it shock me.LOLS.

Lastly thanks Lesby.
For being there for me.You nvr failed to listen to me and cheer me up.Let's go to PlanetLove aye.HAHAHA ^^
I hope the two of you go further , end up as couples.Both of you are really sweeeeeeeeeeet!
Jiayou!(sp?) LOLS.

You're my sunshine! (:

2009-03-07T20:12:00.001+08:00

I'm bck from Sec3 Camp! Weeeeeeee~

We'll mind you , this will be a super loooooooooooooong post.

First day
Report to school and hve some lecture crap thing by MrTan.
Thn bck to class to hve some interaction thing with our Instructors.
Our instructor was Shi Yi(sp?) and Kristen. We had to do this one thing on th Mahjong paper.And we called ourselves the "Quacks" (sp?). It's super fun! and i think it was nicely done!

after tht head to the dairy farm.We settled sown in our dorms thn had sme bonding games.
We played the skipping thing and sme other problem solving thingy.Then had outdoor cooking and WE, 3E4 had to clean up th place.Like wth.LOLS.Some ppl just dont want to co-operate.We practice our class performance fr th campfire.Weeeewow!

That night we had played the game kidnap and then had night hike.The night hike super scary.Me and Mairah was th only girls in the group. At first i looked down all th way cause i scared i see smthing tht i dont want to see. It's stupid of course , i should have just look to the front and enjoy.

Second day
Wake up in the morning.Breakfast.
Thn had nature walk.Nature walk is really loadzxs of fun.I get to see alot of animals tht i never see before.I get to reach the summit(sp?)I felt very proud of myself^^It was super hard to climb up uh.There's alot of nvr ending steps.I was pespiring like i just finish bathing and i dint have towel to dry myself up.
Lunch.
Then Did high rope challenge.I swear it was scray at first. Well , i have to overcome my fear before ATC! If not ATC I DIE! I didnt get to do flying fox.Sobs.

Campfire night! I was super high at first thn towards the end it gets a little boring.Directly after supper it rained super heavily! We all we're stuck in the canteen and we get go to our dorm.So we end up finish bathing late and at other ppl dorm toilet. At ngiht we couldnt sleep.So Me , alisa,amirah,humairah,valerie,hafidah played truth or dare.Amirah didnt play.Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh , got alot of unexpected thing tht's been revealed.btw , WHATEVER WAS SAID IN THE DORM STAY THERE.We sleep arnd 1++

Third day
Did area cleaning.Ours was the easiest.So we end up playing arnd instead of cleaning.Thn head to school bck.I miss the camp!
Ohh and yah , there's a few cute/hot instructors.Weeewooo.
After CAMP had lunch at Mac with alisa,amanda,reshawn nad thinesh.After eating went to the normal hanging out place.We talked about the camp.Thn played the policeman game.Thn played FMK. Hahahaha , damn STUPID siah tht game.Evryone want to go hme suddenly cause a few of us needs to __________HAH!

Reached home Mum was not at hme.Only my older sister was in.So i told her evrything! bout my camp^^ And she really enjoy listening to it.Hahaha , cause she was laughing along too.Thn watch Upin and Ipin fr a while thn i fell asleep till 7++.Woke up thn eat biscuit thn arnd 10++ sleep.

2009-03-07T19:54:00.003+08:00

Today.
Had training.Practice our drills thn did campcraft.
We had to teach the Sec2's how to pitch a tent.
After pitching tetnt we had a small game of soccer.The ten of us- Reshawn,Thinesh,Jayraj,Dion,Vincent,me,azlizah,alisa,amanda,Khoirul VS Insp Zaki,Insp Hairil,Sir Steven ,Insp ZheXing and brendon.

And of course we WON!
hahaa! the game was super funny lh , we made insp Hairil and Insp Zaki fall.The way they fall very funny.InspZaki fall IN the goal post.I laughed til i had stomach cramp.After trainig we sing fr InspZheXing as promised.Super fun!HAHAA! We sing the My sunshine song , I WE fell in love with tht song especially the remix part. Cause we were singing tht song while pitching the tent.

Ohh yah, did i mention.My voice ran away.Gosh , i didnt expect it to run now , myb at least after the cheer competition.

After NP went to have brunch.With the normal ppl.Today ppl sme ppl was not in a good mood so thus not much laughter.We noticed smthing , when one person start being angry or sad everyone follow along.Geeeee~

But lucky jayraj was there.He made a fool out of himself today.He forget to eat his medicine-VitaminF.LOLS

Went straight home with Azlizah and Dion.As soon as i reaached home i fell asleep with my Np shirt and skirt.This show how tired i am.HAH!

Up, up , and AWAAAAAAAAAY!

2009-03-03T20:35:00.004+08:00

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh~
I'll be away for camp from Wednesday till Friday.
LAZY TO GO LAH!
I'm not looking forward for the camp like how i do fr other camps lh.

Well , packing my bag currently.Damn , im sooooo lazy to pack.Darn!

To Lesby![haha!]
Only y'know what happening ah.*winks*
Cheer up aites! SMILES^^

101 post.

2009-02-28T22:04:00.003+08:00

Geeesh,i just realise this is my 101 post manzxs.

Yesterday had training at HTA.As per normal , it's super tiring but fun!
Going bck time , from HTA to HongKah , "caught" jayraj and reshawn watchin-yknow wht.
It's super like gross(?).
When we reach HongKah , We had A huge laugh man(!) while changing to Mufti.Jayraj really laugh till he drop to the floor.As in he really laugh till he lie down on th floor.OMG! I laugh till i bang onto the wall(!)Geeeeshhhhhhh.

Went out with Vincent,Amanda and Reshawn to IMM.Complete th CSSP project.I just remembered tht it's deadline is on Monday(!)

Hahaha ,

Currently chatting with amanda and Reshawn.
Weeeeeeeeeee , they make my day(!)

Tmr have bbq ,idk wether i'll be going or not.DARN. I want to go but.... Sheeeeesh ,

Well i got nothing else to say.BYE!

Paranoid.

2009-02-26T20:13:00.004+08:00

School is as per normal.
Had SS CT.It was not tht badly done and not tht good too.
After CT had Class Cheer.
Thn homed with Sabrina,Shariff, Alisa and her lil sister.

Im quite happy today in school because of smthing.But i dont know how long tht will last.But i dont think it will last or it will not happen as the way i wanted.SIGHS.
Let's drop this subject totally.

Currently feeling damn MAD at somebody.Damn it manszxs.
Nvm lazy to mention who is tht person and evrything is just like SUPER complicated.Even i don understand it myself.
Tht person is just like super making things more complicated.Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh!

Tmr got Parade.Damn.I'm super lazy to go but im looking forward to it(?)
As in im lazy to go fr th training part counting up to 99(?) backstage.Like wht like dat.
And im sooooooooooo not loooking forward to meet th "buyers" inspector.And my new Contigen , Contigen 5, is like....I prefer contigen 9! And i hate the timer.Super fast siol.But i cant wait to meet my new friends^^They're super funny , especially those guys from Shuqun who call me and Azlizah kakak.Lols.

P/s:I'll be going to Hang Kah tmr.LOLS.

Eeeeek , tht reminds me , stuck-up boy will be thre tmr.DARN lh.We hate you more tht the amount you hate us. Yknw i knw lh eh.I hope i dont hve to fall in beside him tmr.

Im feeling super bored now.Weeeee~ Ohh yah i saw RAINBOW yesterday.It's super nice i tell you.HAH!

As days goes by ,

2009-02-23T21:09:00.007+08:00

Geeesssssssh.

School is fine today.
Math CT was oklh. I didnt screw up tht much.
But i think i'll just pass , i got the feeling tht i did alot of careless mistakes.

After school went to buy Ice cream thn went Koufu thn go to the place where we usually hang out.With Khoirul , amanda, Vincent and Thinesh.
Alisa need to go home early,Jayraj got Tuition(!)

Tomorrow got Classification Shoot! Diedie!
I'm nervous already.I dont mind if i dont get th marksmanship badge tht much.But, i'll be glad if i get it.I'll feel so honoured mansxzsx. Weeeeeee.
Btw i did well during my air shoot, i won the 3rd best shooter prize.
But air gun and th real revolver is tottaly different , Wayyyyyyyy different.
The distance is like way further , 15m!
DARN , I'M SUPER SCARED.

OMG tht reminds me , i hvnt polish my boots and adjust my badges my uniform.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek , lazy siolzxszxsx!

I dont have much to update today , but if i dont it'll look dead.

I wanna RUN away with TWINY!
As far as possible , where we could shout out loud!
Geeeeeeeesh , Twinny cheer up aye.I'll be here for you.
I will(!) move on , you should toooo! Ok!
I'll try to keep going on(:
Btw thanks alot fr lending you ears ^^
Andd ohh yah , we should go out sometime , We can have a long peaceful heart to heart talk.
Hahaha , Random.
SMILE ALRIGHT!

I guess I should just HATE you more.

2009-02-16T21:46:00.002+08:00

Geeeesh~
Today is a sad day and happy day i guess.

Happy because of the "BUNUS" thingy and sme other stuff.

Spent the whole day after school with Vincent and Amanda at Mac today.
We share a lot of stuff today.
We laugh untill stomach pain thn suddenly talk bout smthing sad and YES, i cried infront of my friends.But is a total different thing uh.OK , nvm.

To AMANDA ,
CHEER UP ALRIGHT BESTIEEE/LESBYY!
Although i'm feeling sad myself.Im in the samne boat as you bestie.
I know exactly how it feels like. I just want you to cheer up alright , so I too can cheer up.And i think Alisa too will cheer up. ^^ Smileee! Like how i do , I'm trying my very best to put on a smile on my face in school. COME ON! remeber , we're strong.The ACES manszs!

And thanks RESHAWN!
For cheering me up! You're the best mansxzs! Nvr fail to mke me smile.And although you are not tht gd in words but still you give me useful advice , as in I can ask you anything i need to know bout you know what^^

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr~
This one soul really mke me spoil my mood.
You NEVER understand me at all i can say
Doesnt mean sad must cry right! Walao!Wht's ur f problem man?

Happy Belated Valentines Day ♥

2009-02-15T18:39:00.005+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Zamzilah(14/2) and
Happy Belated Birthday to Tekkia (14/2) anddddddd
Happy Belated Birthday to Alexandra (14/2)

Thier birthday is on Valentines Day!
Geeeeeeee~
SEC 1 ORIENTATION NPCC ORIENTATION CAMP IS OVER!

Both sad but glad.
We were like really bonded already(!) And tht's cool.

I love♥ the CAMP alot! , it was a success but Ambush and Bang was not!
Damn sad uhs , Cause smthing happen , the fire alarm went off.
I was super shocked and scared. I thought it was a real fire.
It was not.thn get scoldong by Ms Candice Tan cause we panic which mke the sec 1 panic.
She at school gt fire drill thn evryone playplay , nw everyone panic.

Slept arnd 2.++ woke up and 5.00
Had bbq , and had a mini Valentine thingy.

We expected pumpings after th camp, but none.
Only we need memorise the songs by Saturday.

After the camp meet mum.Got meet the parents session.
Th went IMM to eat lunch , thn mum went to find present fr my cousin.
I swear it was super tiring.I nvr asked fr anything at all. Baik sey.
Thn going hme time I told mum i wanna take a cab and we did!

Reached hme arnd 3 going to 4.
Bathed thn sleep all the way till the nxt morning!
woke up at 7.00am. Omg! i sleep like a pig manszxs.
Mum said she wake me up to eat dinner but i nvr wake up. Th truth is I never ever hear them waking me up.If there was a fire i think i'll be burnt to death ready.

LOL.

SMILEES(:

2009-02-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

School was as pathetic as usual.

Early in the morning went to school damn early , cause i thought i was late already. Screw the clock manxzs.

Thus, i saw Amirul at JE. Omg , he look SOOOO weird wearing long pants. HAH! i think he's still as short as usual(?)

Early in the morning chaotic ready. We ahve to "distribute" the shirt fr those who cant come fr the mini meeting.Gaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh. I can feel the tense of the sec 1 camp mansxzs:/

PE we did Javelin . i swear i suck at it.Thn i talk to hafidah bout her ex den mine.Ouhhhh cool^^
CH was okeylh.
POA test on balance sheet was ........ I forget which is under which.Luckily i can balance th thingy.Math was fun.I was super high during math.SS i sleep= teacher bang my table. HE S lh i tell you.All he teach was like common sence?EL got bck our grammar test , lucky passs. FWUUH.

After school had Pyhsics remedial.Only half of th class turn up(?) Toooots.
Thn wen tot the canteen , again , Np stuff. Saw Nabilah practicing fr PC , so we join her. HAHA.

There's 38 Student joining NPCC. Th we plan th stuff all only fr 30. Lke WTF. Went hme from school arnd 6++. Thn went to opp to eat first. reached hme arnd 7.00

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh , im super scared fr th camp. And OMG i hvnt prepare uniform.
GTG!

Wonderful(:

2009-02-08T20:00:00.001+08:00

I hvnt been updating for a long time manszxs.

Alot of things had happen.

Gheeeeeeeeee~

This week was awesome or myb not?

Friday was awesomely fun.
Went for Annual Parade , it's our first training.
I cant believe taxi driver can lost their way.Damn stupid siah.
Mine,azlizah and Rita's cab fee was only 4.++ While Reshawn's was 7.++
Dumb. Because of tht we made th whole Area 18 wait for us at Hong Kah.
Took the bus to HTA. Bus ride is just the most fun thing. Especially when I sit beside WaterBuddy! She's funny.
Trainig was fun.The food fr break was nice but the queue isnt nice.It's super long!
Well from Area 1 to Area 18(?) was all there having the same break time(!)
Trainig ends at 6.00, wait fr the bus fr like more thn 30 min? So i arrived home arnd 8.++?

Saturday went to Pulau Ubin.
BB and NCC was there too.
Bumb bot ride was super fun.Going part we acted tht we were th SWAT team.Going bck time we sat at the bck of th bot with water splashing on us.Azlizah was the most wet one. Haha.
It's super fun especially Beach Cleaning ^^
We found a lot of stuff including Bras and Underwears (!)
After tht went to hve lunch at KFC thn went to JP to collect our shirt!!!!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Thanks to amanda's mum fr sending us to JP thn bck home.
Arnd 9.++ confrence with amanda and alisa.We shred alot and luagh alot too XD
We decided to talk to Ting Yan.Its his last year Anyway.Let him leave the school with awesome memories. ^^

Gahhhh, someone spoil my modd tht day.Thanks too alisa and amanda who made me laugh my heart out.I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU GUYS ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!

Andand tht f guy , you really do suck BIG TIME.Ever thinking of breaking my realationship with amanda , i dont think you could.Thanks too you, i was mad at amanda fr no reason! You're such a fb manxszx.
You're such a GAY! Because of a SMALL mistake you stop talking to me and alisa?!
Its just falling in not as if we made a BIG FAT mistake!
Jayraj , thinesh and reshawn was angry at us too but we said sorry and they say ok.BUt you!GAY!Worst thn a girl manszxsx!
You said we say things tht hurt YOUR feelings but you!? Your gurt more people feeling by your sacrsm. Especially to azlizah, who do you think she is?She's human too.
If you dont realise Thinesh , Reshwan and Jayraj was angry at you too but they still talk to you and still treat you as per normal.You really spoil our day man , especially at Ubin!
Get lost man You FUCKING GAY!

OK im done here.It such a long post.

oHH YEAH , Happy advance 14th month to us (: The ACES!

Im sooo looking forward fr tmr!^^

2009-01-30T21:40:00.003+08:00

I HATE HAVING FEVER!
IT MAKES ME SEE CIRCLES!

Okay thts random.
Im having the urge to blog.I have alot of things to say. I thinK.

Having fever make me writting all the dumb shit.
I guess alisa and amanda realise it. So if my blog post got alot of mistake phm(understand) jer lh eh.

Just now after school went JP to make/survey the shirt.

Fisrt thing first,
To TY ,
Ohh , idk how . but if you read my blog thn GREAT!
i dont know wht to say.Its hard.Really hard.Cause sriousy right now we dont feel like talking to you just yet.DO OR DIE DONT ASK WHY.i mean dont ask why.yah.THANKS.

And too liyana/Jane
My smileeeeee besarbesarbuddy.
Thanks alot for the design tht you help us make.We appreciate it like truckloads!Thanks liyana!Sec 3's love you!Teehees.
Btw your red shirt super cuteeeee! XD

And too Nabila!
Thanks fro teman-ing me too JP tmr!You owe the sec3 squad big time.(although they dont know you) Tpi nvm! *coughs coughs*

I'm Nuradibah bte amran on the behalf of Sec3s would like to say THANK YOU! XD
Too Both Liyana and Nabila.

LOLS.I've gone CRAZY.

Im trying to cheer myself up lh siolzxs.
From both the tears and trying to fIght the virus.

Ohh yah , someone very close to me ,th one who make me laugh
HAVE CHANGED!
SAD , DISSAPOINTED!

Im trying to save the tears.I hope tht one SOUL die!
I mean as in get out of my sight. ot the die , die.
I want him/her die cause i get over him/her.
By saying this its obviuos its a guy kan.cant be girl! EWWWWWWWW!

Im trying to HATE you but i failed?Why?!
You put too much hope while we were together.You cried for me , you beg not to leave you and nooow? whts happening?
Wht you're doing now doesnt make any sense at ALL!
You lied to me , just because you wanna make me jealous
YES! It works! SO now how? continue making me jealous?
No i wont be , i guess. Even now you still cared bout me but are you trying to hurt me?Or you're really sincere?You making me fall for you AGAIN and at the same time you shout to me as if im your doll?!
COME ON LH! WHTS THE FUXCKING HELL WRONG WITH YOU!!
Is this really your aim? Too make me cry for you like how you do?
Sadll i wont , nvr will i cry for a guy! Not in my teenage years.

2009-01-28T21:48:00.003+08:00

Credit to Amanda for the peeekkture.
I never had the time to update.

LNY holidays was spent awesomely.

Today go to school as per normal.

After school went to Amanda's house.Watch Dead Silence.It was not as scary as what Vincent told us. -.-
Then her mom gave us $$kachings!Heeeeeeee.
Ohh i did smthing bad.And i regret it.
I was playing with one of amanda's hamster.Then there's two cage which look alike. So after playing with the hamster i put it in the "cage" bck.
Few minutes ltr i told amanda" you see the hamster chge colour". Cause before tht amanda say they chge colour follow the season. So amanda was like " errr.. do you put it in the right cage?"
I was like OMG! thn we heard th hamster sound.Boht the hamster was fighting.
gosssssssssssh~
Amanda i'm sorry!

Then made our way home.
At JE saw Nabila and her friends.
Took the same bus as her. The bus damn kecoh siolzxzxs.
Few stops ltr Haidkel and his freinds board the bus.Tambah lgi kecoh.
I was like surrounded by KRSS students.Then Bila start disturbing me "sesat"
LOLS.Thn i replied "aku sesat ker kau? alih2 kt JE?"
Haidkel was like "begging" bila to forgive him cause he call her PENDEK!hahahha.
"Klau aku pendek thn kau? senonet?"Tht's wht bila replied.
Hahahaa..COOL or wht.
LOLS

This remind me of someone.
Why must you always think that whenever i have a problm doesnt mean i fight with alisa and amanda wht.
Cutting my "ties" with you doesnt meean i got a problem with them.Get that fact right!If i fight with them also doesnt mean we hve to stop bieng "siblings" anymore wht.

Have you ever thought why past few weeks/days a few poeple or myb just me and alisa had been irritated by you? Why you keep on talking bou her? FYI it's quite irritatting.YES , i know its hard to get over her but please ah , evrytime our convo bout her? Wht if i keep on talking bout HIM to you?How great he is , how the past memory still inside my mind and i cant forget it.Then cry?

Its not lke we stop you from doing all that but you will know how irritating it is if you were me and i were you.Caus is like we keep advicing you to get over her but you still insisted on keep on thinking of those memories.I know if i say this will hurt you.Stop hoping.

Nvm, i dont think you understand.Forget it.

*I cant blog a proper post.
My body is here but my mind isnt.

2009-01-20T21:29:00.004+08:00

Yo!
I'm taking a break by blogging.
Cool or wht(?)

I LOVE/HATE SCHOOL!

School's fine , but the homeworks and studies is not fun.
Friends ROCK! ^_^YEAH!

OHH! I miss my OSL sisters.Teehees .Random.

Just now school's great.
I totally screw up in POA test. I think i should get help from marcus.I heard his the pro of POA(?)HMMMM*EYEBROWS UP*
LOLS.

After school had lunch.With vincent and amanda and alisa.
Then went to alisa's house.
Homed.
Saw Nurul at bb , so went home with her.
Thn saw Nadia at JE , buss-ed with her.I realise tht whenever we meet she will ask me about the updates of this one gir.Named A........... ^_^
LOLS.

Pegi ngaji
I'm very tired but still mum force me to go.and i got no say.
Ntw there's this childhood friend of mine name Danial.
I thought he cant recognise me and i , he thought i cant recognise him.And so we didnt talk.
He was my classmate wheni was in kindergarden.COOL.
HAHAHAHA!

TMR there's np.Whole dsay welfare.COOL^_^
I cant wait for tmr's training.I cant believe tht im looking forward for NPCC.
LOLS.

And tmr there's rehearsal.Im sooooooooo going to tell ckg tht i dont want to be part of it.I criously cant.Furthermore i cant miss NPCC.

2009-01-10T21:29:00.005+08:00

Jeremy Sumpter is hothot!<3>

I hvnt been posting for a longlong time.
Currently waiting for jayraj to go online(!)

Gosh , school sucks at the same time rocks (?)

Had been having Np training since tuesday which was worth it.
Our performance was superb manzxs.
We train like everyday, putting sticks , hold pebbles , pumpings and more.
Lucky Dn is not in Fancy drill , klau tdk HANCUR! lOLS.
I believe that performance was good , there's last minute changes lucky nvr screw-up.

Just now went to schoolfor CCA awareness day.It was superb.
My aim and azlizah's was to loose our voice buuuuuuuuuuuuut we didnt succeed.
No matter how much we shout and scream our voice still there.

We played bomb game and it always end up at NCDCC.Then when it arrives at GG when they reply we cannot hear.Haiya.
NCC people voice are WOW! They sing song with thier macho voice , but we cannot get the words.
It was fun ah.Everyone there was very enthu .then we had combine UG sing-a-long session.COOL!Only NCDCC never join in.Sad.

Ohh yeah , while we were singing thn suddenly ms candice tan called a few of us.Cool or wht?We are chosen to represent our school for NPCC annual parade.The whole NPCC from all over Singapore.*winkswinks* But i'm sure training will be tough.Kt HTA siolzxsx.Haiyayaya.

Bad thing is that we will miss the first part of sec1 camp.Sad seyh.Futhermore I head of welfare.F lh.Thn i nvr get to see thm play blinfolded animals.Arghhhhhhh! SADSAD!

Nvm , got to go now.I need to complete my NPCC proposal and much more suff to do.
Btw i wont be updating often.Once a week perhaps?

2009-01-04T19:43:00.003+08:00

To my both precious friends : Nur Alisa Nabilla ; my bestest friend and
Amanda Lim Pei Xuan ; my lesby partner

I want to say this one and for all.And it comes from the bottom of my heart.

If you guys don't mind our relationship to break just because of one tinywiny mistake then i have nothing to say. But i do mind.I cried a few times cause I miss the times we had. 2009 starting sucks! For me , idk if you guys feel sad or not.If you are than im glad.It shows tht you care.

Myb i am too paranoid. I believe tht evryone of us make a mistake.Again i think this have to be stopped.There's no use for both side for not giving in.I dont want the three of us to fall out.What everything Ting Yan says is very true.I do MISS the old times, alot.I HOPE both of you do too.

And now i should put a stop in this "game".I'm giving in , sincerely.And i apologize if i had done anything wrong.Im apologizing too both amanda and alisa.Sorry for the mistakes i did, i know i also paly a part in making the fight big because of my stubborn-ness.I really think the three of us should sit together and talk.REALLY TALK.The fight we had really show wht our weakness are and strongness of our friendship are.I think the bigest weakness of our freindship is the STUBBORN-NESS

As im typing this im crying.It reminds me of all the SWEET memories we had together.I do really hope that the three of us treasure the friendship.The bangles that i gave to you guys was a way to show how much i LOVE you guys.

All the sweet memories just run trhough my mind, so far this is the biggest fight we had.Real fights.This is our first and i hope it will be the last.

I can still recall clearly , how we spent our NP days together , how we curse and swear a particular person , the times we had at th carpark and most importantly the times we had at CAMBODIA.

I really wish this post could soften both of your hearts.I hope the two of you will also stop playing the "game" and just apologise to each other.I really treasure our friendship.

Whatever Ting Yan says really hit me. " What's the gain of not giving in? , infact you will gain when you give in" He's the one who has been trying very hard to put back the three of us together.I really appreciate it. I know how you were put in a spot. I'm sorry.

I hope wht i did is right.Our misunderstanding need to be cleared and fast.

With love , Nur Adibah

I HATE CONFLICTS!

2008-12-27T15:05:00.004+08:00

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

i hate conflicts.
i reallyreally do hate conflicts.
It makes me damn sadsad

Why can't you/all just say out wht's on your mind instead of being sarcastic?

If a fairy godmother were to come i would wish for alot of stuff :/
I wish Amanda Lim Pei Xuan to be in my class(!)
I wish to have the power to read people's mind and i can rewind time(?)
I wish to be in F&N with Nur Alisa Nabilla
I wish Nabila Fadzilla have a better life at home(!)
I wish that i could bring Amanda Lim Pei Xuan and Nur Alisa Nabilla to Cambodia again.
I wish i dont have to do homework(!)

ZOMG(!)
What am i doing,I'm whining?
I should not be.
Come on adibah , there's people in life who suffers more than i do.
And i'm NOT suffering.

Last night was a blast!
Beela sleep over my house.We had fun talking to each other.
We talked , we expressed and we laughed.
I should appreaciate my friends MORE.

And mum advice me , i shouldn't have betray a person trust.
which i just did yesterday.Im sorry.

Something cross my mind yesterday.
If you hate someone or the way the person blog why bother passing by him/her blog?
It's kind of stupid isn it? If you do LOVE to critic tht person so much then just keep the comment to yourself lh. I find this kind of ppl BUSYBODY/KAYPO!

Whtevr i blog is my own way to express my feelings

I really do wish evrything will be back to normal on this particular day, 29/12/08

OHH! I had the weird dream , AGAIN(!)
but this time a bit different , the situation
WTH!
Amanda and alisa would know wht i'm talking about.

Now i got nothing to say , there's too much things running through my mind.I cant think properly.And btw , i say alot of things on this post out of randomness.

I'm glad to say , goodbye boy(:

2008-12-26T19:49:00.004+08:00

Yo! heeeeeees.

Long time never post.

Busy siolzxzs , got Npcc stuff since i came bck from th holiday.
And now i still hvnt send amanda th welfare stuff cause i got no time.
Even now i cant use the comp for a long time.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~

Homework not done.Cool or wht.

Today went to school with beela to buy books.
Then met AmandaLesby!
After we bought the books went to meet the rest of click 8.
Jayraj, dion and alisa cant make it.Dion go hospital.lols. Get well soon yeah(:
Went to Jurong Point.
Ate , (skipskip) thn went toyRus.
We spent like around more thn one hour inside.We did alot of stupid stuff.
Then went to buy wallet with amandaLesby!

Thn someone msg me.
Fuyoooooooooooooh tht person really merepek siolzxzx
Woah you think i get sad over you?F off lh.
Nk sad over this kind of stuff/guy buat aper?
Lucky reshawn and ting yan was there.They know wht's the right thing to answer.
And obvioulsy wht you told me is all LIE!
You think i want to get offended?Urghhh~ please ah eh.
I'm not tht dumb =.=
who was the first one who says tht... ok nvm...
and now you think tht i'll be sad over you? obvioulsy wht happen in cambodia already explain evrything.lols.
ok nvm , evrything is over.IM VERY GLAD! *smilebesarbesar!*

When random-ness strikes(:

2008-12-18T19:30:00.005+08:00

I just feel like blogging , so here i am.
This will be a quick post cause i hve the urge for blogging and idk why.

I'm mad/crazy i think.hahhaha.

Firstly ,
Chatted with shariff just now ,he said i'm more cheerful.Which is weird.I'm always like this wht.hahaha.myb after tht two weeks missing shariff's randomness i became more excited when meeting shariff, Ithink.I hope shariff READS this. hahaha.
TAG after you read okok!Say out "I have read the pharagraph!"

RANDOM.

Secondly ,
im confused between know and now.Idk why.HHAHAHHA.It happen while i was chatting with TingYan on msn just now.(ok it happen again while i was typing) hhahaha.

Thirdly,
i chatted with reshawn , and this part really makes me laugh like crazy , hahaha.
Adibah(: says:
chge can , hahaha
RESHAWN(Unleash your inner monkey) says:
??
(*)Adibah(: says:
wht thing?
RESHAWN(Unleash your inner monkey) says:
charge what?
(*)Adibah(: says:
change lh
(*)Adibah(: says:
hahahah!
He always make me smile without fail every training.

And tht brings me to the fourth topic,
I LOVE CLICK 8 darn much.
Although we "fight" evrytime we meet.cool right.
Yesterday was FUNFUN. I love the way they forget something , i mean, errr ok i give one situation.
ON tuesday bout the wallet thing , the nxt day i went training it was like nothing happen th day before.but they do say sorry.
Bck to yesterday , we went carpark as usual.Bofore tht we seprated to buy food.
At carpark we play a game "hide the shoe"It's fraking hell funny ok.We hide reshawn shoe and it was super obviuos but yet he cant find it.then jayraj turn.

Ltr went playground , jayraj and alisa off already.
Left me , manda , reshawn and vincent.
we talked bout alot of stuff.Then talked about th MILF thingy.reshawn an vincent told us whts th meaning. it's damn funny kay.Its form jayraj.
So now we become
Click 8 the milf family by edie milfy.
Okay it's kinda lame but the meaning it's fuuny. For us lh.hahhaa

I love them , ALOT.
They uunderstand me , the most.
We put our differences aside and put together our hearts.

g2g , bye lovelies(:

edited-
Ohh i forget , im going off to batam!
yeah! HAHHAA, i will NOT buy anyhing for anyone.Teehees.
And those who miss me like TY ,quenton(?) amanda and alisa , please dont^_^
ok whtever adibah .
ohh one thing , i'll definetly miss you guys!
CLICK 8! , NurAlisaNabilla and amandaLESBY! XD

take me there please.

2008-12-16T20:01:00.004+08:00

Gosh today's training is like damn pfffffffffffffft.
Drills was totally AWESOME!We had alot of FUN with qeunton(?)
Changing parade is like FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
Woah we kena pumping like for stupid reasons?Yes, th late part i understand , th nvr greet liyana part was like...No offence to liyana but we didn't even know tht she comes lh.Then we kena pumping?We also nvr greet Zamzilah.=.=Nvm forget it , wht's over it's over.

It's really very cucial now for US.Planning our first ever camp in our whole NP life.Gosh , i'm in welfare.Cool or wht.When isaw welfare it does not mean tht it's easy!We need to plan out th games and how to bond them.I really want them to be really bonded like our squad.Aku stress bdh!Haiyayayyaa.

The reason why i nvr talked at all s bcause of moodswings.Goshh.Andand i really want the whole welfare thingy to be close to PERFECT.And th rest i dont even want to mention it.I just dont feel like talking.I know the whole wallet thingy it's just for fun , and when it happens to me , i dont think its fun.And i criuosly think tht it's not fun for others too.It's like HELLO! your wallet is missing , wht will you do , you criously think tht's it's lost or smthing then suddenly soemone takes it out and give it bck to you.How wil you feel?Happy?!Few minutes of you finding your wallet and people arnd you laughing at you cause to them it's stupid.ITS NOT FUNNY.

This reminds me of smthing , i had enough of being bullied or wht so ever.YES , i'm small but tht does not mean i'm tht weak.Evry time when you see someone small you will underestimate them.WTF lh eyhks.I had enough! it's time for me to change.All a while i hve been smiling when someone disurb me or anything , now i dont think i will.Sikit2 boleh if you cross over the line then nasib ah eyhk. Small doesnt mean WEAK.

I just wish that there's really a place where my dream would come true.Obviously,it only happen in fairytale world and i dont live in those kind of world.That kind of world nvr even exist in only happenin movies and im living in realities.obviusly , happy ending like wht you wish to be won't happen.Your own life movie theres no ending to it unless you die.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I'm feeling both mad and sad!
I dont even know how to describe this feeling .
i feel like going some where to shout and scream and just gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!I feel like a FOOL!

It's a really bad feeling when those who nvr fails to make you smile suddenly they are the ones who makes you sad.The feeling ah , gosh, onlygodknowshow.

I hope tmr training wont be as hard as this training , obvoiusly i think it's tougher.Got th CI tmr.Stuoid lh.Fancydrillfancydrill , when we going do tht? =.=

2008-12-15T16:08:00.003+08:00

Ohoh!
another thing , i forget to say this

For those NPCC cadets who did not attend the training on 11 december you HAVE to come for the rest of the trainings.

There will be one training tmr and we will tell you the rest of th dates tmr.

if you nvr come you'll be in bigbigbig TROUBLE. tht's wht Ms Toh and insp Zaki says.

Hello!(:

2008-12-15T13:51:00.005+08:00

Goshh....

I didn't realize tht i hvnt been posting for 1o days(?)
So here i am!Posting!I'm tooooooooooooo busy too post , or myb i should say lazy?

I hve skipped alot of memorable dates.

On 11 dec(?)
Had NPCC training!Gosh i MISS them darn alot manzsxszx.but i cant hug them =.= they are guys.LOLS.I was supersupersuperduper HIGH! early in th morning when i see vincent and amanda opp school at 6.40++Came to school with alisa and reshawn.Teehees.Had drillsdrills and more drill.Poor jayraj , he got punishment from insp Zaki for like 1564 time?Then i got punishment cause i look at him doing pumping infront of NCC guys.pfft.

They were sitting in the canteen watching us doing our drills?Yes , we know our drills is not as perfect as yours! Come on you guys are Sec 3 going Sec4 . we are Sec 2 going Sec3.Furthermore we forget our drills.Kiter nyer drills dh rusty lh oiii dh lmer tk train.
MOVING ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~
After that we went KFC!It was full so we pack and off to carpark.
Carpark , It brings alot of WONDERFUL memories.Did i mention tht th whole Click 8 was there with one xtra guy?

On 12 dec!
Had OSL gathering cum dinner!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHa!
I huged all the girls!The hug ah , super warm i tell you.
The hug is like saying "I MISS YOU DARN MUCH!"
Rraysha and halijah ar super cool ppl to be on the bus with.Halijah did smthing to and unknown guy.Teehees.
Arrived at Mr Tan condo we surveyed arnd th condo then eat dinner, celebrate sabrina's bdae,played with th cake , sharing session , sit arnd then cam whore , home.
I arrive arnd 11.++.

On 13 dec!
Ini date ah! sungguh special.
It meant two things ,
Sabrina's birthday ,

Happy Birthday Sabrina!I hope you have a wonderful birthday.Yes, your parents are not arnd but I'm arnd!Yippee! I hope you like the surprise we gave although it was not tht successful , but we manage to let you feel left out. YEAH! hahahahhaa!

And
My One YEAR of friendship with Nur Alisa Nabilla.

Gosh girl , it has been one year.Time sure flies real faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast.I didnt even realise it was one year.It seems like only 6 mths(?)In this one year we had nvr ever fight before or have any misunderstandings.We started of with three , ended up with only two of us.I'm veryvery happy with tht.I really appreciate the time tht i spent with you.The time in Np , th time in OSL and so much more.Remember the cute cat book?It was suppose to be "opened" long time ago , but i dont think we need a book cause we work like wonders.Teehees.Without even saying you would know wht's in my mind and i would know wht is in your mind.Mcm banana in pyjamas gitu."Are you thinking wht i'm thinking Alisa?"HAHAHAHHA.Even my mum and your mum know each other and plan to go out together.OHH wth , Even our younger sisters get excited when they see each other.Our family are like longlost cousins , but i treat you like my sister , older sister of course.hahahhaha!twins lh eh?Eh tk bley twins!You are like super tall and im like short.hahaha.tkper We can become erhhhhhh Lada's in errrr ntah lh eh.
Thanks for being there for me , thanks for sharing all those secrets with me , thanks for listening to my every single complain ,thanks for waiting for me evry morning,thanks for putting up with my moodswings,thanks for everything.
Our friendship is stronger than Diamonds. Remember our promise , we would continue this friendship 3,4,5,6 years or more.Andand if we have any misunderstandings we clear with each other first before assuming.

Back to my post ,

On 14 i did errr ,
Ohh , follow mum to org kahwin at bukit batok and bukit panjang.
Met Ck mi and Ck yos.
At the first org kahwin thre's a group of kompang ppl(obviously).Then kn then kn there's this cute guy.Fwuuhhh~i was like looking at him playing kompang then ck mi say this"dibah tgk yg mner stu dibah?" Then i replied *with a smile on my face*"semua"hahahha.After tht went to JE. Mum bought for me a new phone and a new number.YEAH!^_^ Best! hahaha.

Okay i should stop now , my post i super longglonggg.Kter one week review per! hahahha!
ok dh BYE!

Wait! i forget smthing , i get into 3E4 , WITH Alisa and Jeremiah. Weehoo!
But no AmandaLesby , sadsad.Nvm we sill can see each other during NP and OSL.okok?
And smthing shock me , since when i choose CS? i choose F&N lh!
i need to meet Mr heng and FAST!
tmr there'll be fancy drill , cool or wht. i can't wait(?)First time peeps.

okok dh! BYE lovelies

The Cambodia atmosphere is still lingering arnd me.

2008-12-04T21:09:00.005+08:00

See that girl in pink?That's Seritu.And those two adorable girls infront of me are twins!They are super cute and they live such a slow basic life.Guess what , thay walk arnd the whole village without slippers. I MISS THEM ALL MANZXCSZXS!
Especially my deardear SERITU.

Gosh , i still miss Cambodia darn alot!And of course,the People in it!Liyana,Farah,halijah,W.nabilah,F.nabilah,Sabrina,raysha,Nadia,Alisa,Amanda and muchmuchmore.Idk why, but i just feel like naming those people down.I soooooo look forward to 12 DECEMBER! There will be an OSL gathering! WEEEEEEEEHOOOOOOO!

Ok i've been staying at home since i return from Cambodia.I just feel like sleeping.Mls ah nk siap dn kluar.My sister ask me to visit her at her work place , but i'm toooooo lazy to gooooooo.Btw There's a starbuck open house.You'll get free drink when you visit any Starbuck store.But i think now's too late knszx.(memang pun =.=)

I dont have anything to blog , yet i feel like blogging.Hahhaha.

Well , currently chatting with Liyana!She's superduperFUN to chat with!She'll put a smile beesarbesar on your face.HAHaHA!It's true y'know.I'm looking forward to meet her!Bley kcau dier lgi bykbyk! *evil laughs*

Ohh , i need to do reflection.Date due bsk.Fwuhh.And I stil need to help Farah out with the fundraising report.Ok g2g!

Bye earthlings!
*errrr , if you notice i talk rojak.Idk why , i just feel like it.Random me XD

♥ With love , Nur Adibah

I am back from CAMBODIA

2008-11-29T19:50:00.004+08:00

im yours -

This song remind me of my OSL team mates(:

I'm finally bck after 2 weeks from cambodia.Time pass very fast.Im both happy and sad.I'll definitely miss Cambodia.I LOVE the life there.It's so peaceful and they're living with only basic stuff.The kids there are so stressed free from studies.

There will be alot of stuff i'll miss.The OSL team , Seritu , the "villa" , everyday life going to "work" and much more.I ahd fun there , damn much fun.The trip there was made more wonderful with the people that go for the trip.

Alright , i met this 9 yrs old girl name Seritu.She's a very oh so sweetlovelyprettycutecaring girl.I'LL DEFINETLY MISS HER.I'm the one who's the most attached to her.Evryday she'll be waiting by the gate of the Chappel to wait for our arrival.When i walk in through the gates she will run to me and hug me.She's a very sweet girl and i will never ever forgat her.Ohh , and i cried before parting with her.The last hug with her was oh so very long.I could sense that she feel sad on tht monday.Her smile was not the usual smile that she use to have.

Kids in Cambodia are very different from kids in Singapore.They are less pampered.They laugh when they get hurt instead of crying.If they cry it only last less than 1 minute.Cool huh.The games they played are all very basic.I had fun playing it with them.One thing for sure , i will NEVER forget the memories i had wit all of the kids.

Moving on.During the trip there i have learn a lot of stuff. I have changed in one way or another.Alot of things happen.There's day when i'll laugh my ass of and there's day when i cried.Things happen between me and someone.

Wait i want to tell all my first encounters .
-first time visiting Cambodia

-Carrying a live chicken
-Go cherry picking along the roadsides
-wash my own clothes by hand for 10 days
-bath with three other friends EVERYDAY.
-ermmmmmm , carry gravels and rocks.
-talk using khmer language.
-See a 15 year old kid but small as a 10 year old kid.
-Part with my mum for 2 weeks.
-Live without proper lighting.
-See angkor wat

And much more other stuff

Wait before that i want to tell you that i have a family in OSL.
The family tree started from Wan Nabilah
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skip
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Fatin nabila is my mum.
Nadia is my daughter
Fredy is my grandson.
and the family tree continues.

I found out that
Halijah and i good at advising each other and halijah is a good friend for me to share secret with.
Ting Yan is my chinese brother who can give me superb advise.
Riyaas is DARN irritating and DARN pervert
Muhaimin is the one who always wake people up during reflection with his funny words.
Haziq shriek like girl(!)Way much worser than a girl.And his scared of bees.
Quenton changed hell lot.
Liyana is fun to disturb.Haha.
Farah can be a goood listener and fun to talk with
Sabrina can be veryveryvery blur.
Suharti loves shopping darn alot
Nadia is scared of butterfly and have a very cool hair
Raysha is scared of frogs.She has something called Raysha-cist
Wan Nabilah can be very fun to bath with(Remember that day?).She's a ohhsosweet senior too.
Ashraf is a lame guy.
Lifang never stop smiling eventhough when she's crying,Cool eh.

Okay i shall stop here.If not there'll be a longlong post.I'll talk bout some other stuff some other days.Pictures will be uploaded after someone send me te pictures.Last few words ,

CAMBODIA IS FUN
especially with the people arnd me.
I LOVE CAMBODIA

Boy , I miss you(:

2008-11-11T21:28:00.005+08:00

Boohoo!

3 MORE DAYS TO CAMBODIAA!
Time really pass VERY fast.
I hvnt finish packing my bag and i still hvnt got enough SLEEP.
Gosh~
But, i can not wait to go to Cambodia.I feeeeeeel the BOND(!)

I wonder wht more that spoil brat will do.Make more people have misunderstanding(?)I hope not.And those lazy asses who always help by using eye power will do their respective job at Cambodia.And i'm not looking forward for the Reflection night.It sucks!Haiyoo.

I MISS ALOT OF PEOPLE.
Click 8, Nabila bte Fadzilla, Hairina, Npcc!(:
Alisa!(woooow , today no romantic phone calls?) ,
Lesby! (im chatting with her , yet i need to joke with her live)

HIM(?)

Okay im done here , MAYBE this will be my last post before i fly off.

-

to that person .
I've changed , YES! I KNOW .
Only infront of you ,
I dont need/ want your attention anymore.
I know i sound mean , you've hurt me enough.
You hve her now! GO!
You've made up your mind , i hope you learn a lesson.
Evrything you do will hve consequences.
I've had enough , you hurt me once , twice and now thrice. I dont need to be hurt for the fourth time.
It's hard for me to forgive you this time.
I have move on , so you should too.
Find a better girl , i dont match you.
You're no longer mine and im no longer YOURS.Get the facts right.
Don't go around saying things tht you should not.
You've totally changed , you are no longer th thaqif i know bck then.
I dont want you to change ,
I dont have feelings for you now , nither do i hate you.
We could still be friends , Bestfriends.

Hello(:

2008-11-07T22:41:00.003+08:00

7 more days to Cambodia
6 more days to th streaming results

im feeling veryvery frustrated now.
I have a lot of things to do but very little time.
Haiyoo.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

2008-11-05T15:30:00.005+08:00

5 November 2008

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen.
But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in.

Found this quotes while browsing th internet , i find them cute(:

Firstly ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILA BTE FADZILAH!
Have a fantastic birthday sweet(:
Aku ingat birthday kau okay , sweet tk aku? Teehees.
Dh 1245646456 days aku tk jumper kau. Rindu lh oii!hahaha!
I need to meet you , FAST! before aku fly ooooooooooffffffffffffffffff~

9 more days and i'll be gone from Singapore for two weeks.
I'm gonna survive , I'm gonna survive , I'm gonna survive , I'm gonna survive , I'm gonna survive(!)
I havn't pack even a single thing at all , i hvnt got myself a bag , i still have one more newspaper collection to settle.
I feel soooooooooooo busy , but well i had fun through th journey with th wonderful OSL TEAM.

This remind me of something ,
why do people want to break up other poeple's relationship?
Wht's th answer or myb wht's the reason? I don't get it.
Jealous , angry , the feeling of happiness when people fight?
WEIRD.
Those people really do LOVE to make poeple misearable.

I don't know which one is the true side , which one to listen to.
And i think alisa is the best , thanks bestie for that piece of advice , it really "heal" me alot.
Maybe your right , try to give at least a little trust.

And thanks along , tht night you lend me your handphone.It really makes a lot of difference.thanks for you understanding(:

Okay enough(!) I'm suppose to be at school TODAY.Cutting out th flyers , but i postponed it to tmr. I really need to go to school tmr , for the flyers cutting , flyers distribution and logistic packing.Pack sey , i still hvnt go buy th stuff i need.Oh shit , im very tired both pyhsically and mentally.

Thanks to THAT person who made me mentally tired -.-

I'm happy with what i get now

2008-11-02T20:27:00.004+08:00

Fwuhhh~

Just came bck from OSL camp.It was absolutely awesome.We slepyReally , the camp make me change my way of life.COMPLAIN LESS APRECIATE MORE.tht's wht i learn.

We visited to the red cross house for the disabled.I reallyreally pity those poeple.Since they are born they are like tht , but they are still strong to live thier life although they all cant walk at all.I mean , they are still leading their life like us , still can smile. tht trip really open my eyes.I keep on complaining about wht i did not get , i never appreciate what i already have.I should be happy that i'm already born normal.That's the best gift of life.Hahha.Like doing reflection like dat.Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Food at the camp was super nice , we cook ourself and buy all the grocceries ourself too! Told mum , she say myb we are hungry tht's why all food are nicee.HAHA.Reflection time is such a urghhh! reflection till late night or should i say very early morning? Wht's 1.++ and 2.++ considered as?Well i dont know.Tk thu lh knzxzx.

I was imagining , how will it be like to stay over Cambodia for 2 weeks.I mean how the food gonna be like etc.Well im gonna survive, endure lh siolzxzx! Hahaha , semangat Np.Okay lamee.

It's very hard for me to choose.

2008-10-30T13:05:00.003+08:00

Thursday, 3oth October 2008

Staying at home all day SUCKS!
i hve nothing to do , play comp , eat , sleep , watch tv , eat again , and the cycle continues.
I gonna grow fatfatfat!

Blog post on wht you do at home is such a bore.I have nothing to post but i wanna post cause im superrduperrtipitydupity(?) bored!

Ohh yah , this remind me of something badbad happen.I went out with along and my cousin on monday(?).We went bugis.Then my sister's wallet lost! someone pick-pocketed.she was carying a backpack then we went into bugis village.When she checked her bag , puffff , the wallet was gone! She was very sure than the bck was zipped , when she chack the bag was unziped.We went to tanglin police post.

It is one of th small police HQ in Singapore.Inside there was very interesting , i felt like walking around the place.Then my cousin keep on saying "this is not an excursion" Well who cares!Im intrested in all this stuff.Okay bck to th topic my sister made th police report , my cousin keep on saying tht policeman is hot.Hahaha.And i agreed with her.Biasa lh slalu nyer bler gi HTA slalu kite _ _ _ _ -_ _ _ _.Badbad girl aidbah.Teehees.

Alright, tuesday. Went for OSL meeting.As usual , pack th room blahblahblah.After tht went to IMM with alisa and amanda.It's super FUN!hahaha.Alright, i'm lazy to elaborate.

Ohh , tht mtherfucking person! shout out his name for wht!?!.It's dumb lh! super dumb!there's no point of you shouting his name as amanda will not be traumatised by tht name or something.It's kinda of stupid!You keep on trying to hurt her just bcause of your friend?I think your friend is the despo one.Although tht guy dont want her ready still want go after his current gf and scold tht person for stealing byf.You got tht little brain of yours and better use it!Wht's the use of bringing down th current gf? is as if tht boy will go bck to you!And also bcause of you we cant get th same hotel room at cambodia. WTF!!!.

Alright im bck to th normal mode.Chat with reshawn just now.Yeah! Finally our senrosa trip is well planned out! We will be going for a picnic/play/bbq/hang-out.Hhahaha , inside joke , you know i know and tht wht matters(: But jayraj could not go! sobssobs.

And tht remid me of his trip to india.
Have a fun and safe trip aye.Hope to see you soooooooon[:

Holaa!

2008-10-27T14:00:00.005+08:00

Monday,27 october 2008

Gosh , i'm bck from th tiring camp manzxzx.
andand i got no time to use comp or myb i should say i lazy(?) use th comp.
Lag oi!~ mls nk tunggu.

Camp was awesome , but tiring bangat deh.
Welfare games was superduper FUN.
solo night was a hell. The CI's told us ghost story before tht around th campfire.And in case you don't know solo night is th night whereby you sleep alone around th school.Creepy ois.I nearly cried when i was told to sleep alone outside D&T.Cause alot of people sa th chair wil start moving by itself. Then jayraj says "nvm i sleep here"I was like fwuuuuuuuuuuh~ Art room nxt.Zilah and i was like begging insp.aisyah to let us sleep together.And we got it!

Art room creepy~ Dinding dh lh hitam.At first zilah and i was not able to sleep.then we tried closing our eyes at last we fell asleep.before tht we heard funiture moving then we heard someone shouting "it sound like amanda and nabilah shouting" th nxt day asked them and they say they didn't scream.Woahhhh~ den saper sak tu?
we heard a lot of voicees siolzxzx.Heard footstep coming but then when i peep and wait there's no one.(i was covering my face with zilah poncho).jayraj kener paling teruk.Kesian dier.lucky i nvr sleep there.If not i'll scream my whole lungs out!Then he changed place and sleep at the foyer.

Second day had promotion test.I screwed up manzxzx! i did badly , very badly. I hate insp zaki! he purposely give me th hard comand while others get very easy comand.It's not fair! Urgh~conform FAIL!

Through tht camp i learned tht becoming NCO hard siolzxzx.hahaha.mcm reflection gitu knzxzx.But , i'm soooo looking forward to organize nxt year camp and POC!(:

My precious survive[:

Let's just drop th whole subject about camp.Let's talk bout today.

My uncle and aunt will be staying over my hse till their hse is all done up.And there will be Afan! tht cutecute little boy.Ohh gosh , im so happy tht i'll get to see him evryday.I get to bby sit him siolzxzx!Hahha.

Im getting hyper now.

ohh well , not much bout today.ohh yah yesterday nek biyah[my arwah nenek punyer adk] sleep over my hse too! it's fun hving her around.She's just like nenek *kater adkberadik*.
okay lamee~
And she remind me of nenek.I nearly cried when she say something bout nenek.I can't remeber.But wht i remeber when she say tht, suddnely nenek face sitting on her bed poped into my head.I want nenek bck canzxzx?Ohh crap , i cant like wake nenek up anymore knzxzx.so treasure your grandparents friend(:Hhahaha.

And wellwell , my surroundings hve changed greatly lately. Some changed for th better and some chged for th worst.
Holidays are here , tht means lesser time spent with school friends.
I'll miss 2E3 darn lots manzxzx.
i'll miss alisa , i'm already missing her sey.bru 48 hrs tk jumper.Tk per gi cambodia full 2 weeks i'll see her 24/7.Hohohohohohohoho.

beela to! i miss hanging out and talking to you cousin/friends/scandal aku[: Hhaha.Hyper doks!Evrytime aku jumper kau conform ketawe mcm nk rak.And ohh yah aku terigt psl gmbr old school kiter(:Im so gonna miss you when i go to Cambodia.Andand i'll keep my promise to make you a " happy loving day" card.Since you gave me th "happy heartbreaking day" card.AND cptcpt lh baik dri demam kau tu.I'm so looking forward to th night when you'll be sleeping over.

Okay dh adibah , cukup pnjg dh post kmu.

We re-united!

2008-10-19T20:27:00.004+08:00

Finally , i've waken up my blog bck.

Yesterday was FUNFUNFUNFUN!
It's like little gathering tht i had been waiting for since last year(?)Went out for jln raya.
Had school first than rushingly(with nadia's call) went home to siap.

First stop , Nadia's hse.They go i didn't.had no time.Nxt stop ummul radiah's house.met them at ummul's void deck.Fwuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh , cantik2 dan handsome2 bangat deh kwn kwnku smua.Biasa lh dh membesar knszxzx.Had mee soto at her hse.

Next was hasan's house , didnt eat anything there then ezzul's hse.His mum served us pizza.Sedap deh!but before going to ezzul hse hasan and mus went somewhere.They looked tired when they came bck.Buat aper ah korang?*winkswinks*.ohh and tht remind me of wok and nyotnyot.

After tht head to west coast , Mustaqim's house.His mum served nuggets.Hasan slept like a pig tht's wht Nadia says.Hahaha.Syafiqah's house last.Her house sungguh menarik! double story siolzxzx.Her brother superuber cute lh oii! he keep on calling one of us to go up and watch movie with him.We all sabo Ezzul(?)i think.Ate lontong at her house.

After house visiting , it was still super early.It's like only arnd 8? Decided to go lepak.Went imm's skypark.Fwuhhhh~di situ smua jdi giler!At first smua diam.Played truth or dare.klakar maut siolzxzxzx. *laughing my ass off*.

Mustaqim and ezzul chose dare while others chose truth.Ezzul's dare was going to one bangla and say "the fish very nice ah" *laughing my ass off*We were like wth.It's damn funny lh!Mus dare was sitting behind this group of bangla clapping his hand.Sumpah klakar gile.Dgn muker dier selambur nk maut.the bangla's was like looking at us.

After the game went lvl 5 to take photos.There's not many people there.Hp diniy jdi sasaran.Muahahahaha.den diniy,nad,hasan and mus went mac.Me ,ummul and ezzul homed as ummul want to sleep.I wanted to go home with ummul as she stayed opp my blog.

ohh and yeah! i found out tht i had the same date as Siti Nadia bte Amran. 14 october 2008

Bowling trip on?Aku nk gathering lgi lh siolzxzx!

I wish i could fly like a bird

2008-09-28T13:48:00.002+08:00

I've typed some stuff but i decided to erase evrything of.
My mood currently is FRUSTRATED AND SAD.

I'VE GOT NO MOOD TO BLOG.
& I WONT BE BLOGGING AT ALL THIS FEW WEEK DEW TO HARI RAYA AND EOY.

WTH!
I NEED MORE TIME CANSXSXSX?

you're the chicken

2008-09-21T18:14:00.002+08:00

To the someone.
eh my problem wht i want to write it's my blog, i have my own say.
and who ever is my current obsession my problem ah.So wht if i's not my thing.there's no such thing lh bodoh.
You said that i was a chicken and ask me to tell straight in the face why dunt you do that?say people very clever then you yourself?If im a ugly bitch , i dunt care at least i dunt spam people blog like you do.How do you know thati nvr tell that person?I told that person already lh.Unless you think that the post referring to you.If not why spam.And i know i already tell that person. Ok im done.Lzy to reply to this kind of shit.

Hello[:

2008-09-14T13:45:00.003+08:00

I'm updating again for this week.And currently now im at my uncle's house.
This house use to be where i akways visit my grandmama.
Okay im super sad now.When i see my grandmama room it'll remind me of her.I feel like crying siolzxzxzx..Rinduuuuuuuuuuuuu nyer.I feel like shouting and call her back here to be with me.Can?!
I learn a lesson.Treasure those who are around you when they are still alive.It no use crying when they are gone.But im really very close to grandmama.Usually ill always breakfast at her house every Sunday with all my other cousin.Now no more of those.
Ohh enough of this.SMILE[:

Yesterday went for CIP.Meet alisa and amanda at bb mrt station.Head to CCK mrt station.CIP was fun.Not so tiring for me.my group consist of leena,amanda and 5 other NCC guys.The guys all damn funny lahs.LOLOLOL.After CIP met Wenyew at Yew Tee mrt.Then we go study.After tht follow alisa to Lot 1.Walk arnd for a while.Homed.After tht bath and go to my aunts house.
At my house damn fun lh siolzxzx!

Met Beela whom i havent meet for like 1456years. Talk to her bout stuff and she told me bout her stuff.FUN lh.I'll always tell her my problems.She will always be the first one to know who my crush or byf is.I find her the best person to talk to.She understand me the MOST.She know who my true self is.How am i at home and how am i at school.Hohos.Aku LOVE dier l kns[:And i belive she is not a MINAH.She is the type of person who dare to prove her self right.Although she is kinda fierce nd scary when she get angry , she is someone kind at heart.she's not SCARED to face her own problem Ohh well,aper2 lh eyhks.

And btw.
I HATE ________
I HATE HER TO THE CORE!
SHE BLOODY HELL SUCKS LH KNS!
NK FLIRT SNER FLIRT SINI.
NK STEP MCM MINAH.
ey perangai berubah sikit lh eyhk.Ko tk perasan per yg people surronding ko BENCI ko.
you know what you're scared !Infront of ______ step mcm minah.Behind her you are like so very polite mcm aper.I feel like slapping your face evrytime i see you.Kener stare dri beela jer dh takut ,nk jadi fierce?Perangai merepek mcm whatever lh kns.You even try to break other people relationship.Happy per skarang dh dpt break people's relationship.You also talk bout your OWN BESTFRIEND behind her back.What kind of friend are you?Why dunt you tell her straight in the face tht you hate her.She wont be misearable as she is now.And one more thing tk yah nk gi influence org okay.If you hate someone hate yourself.dunt tell other people and say bad things bout the person you hate.You know what i HATE you and i even wish you'll die one day.This is how much i hate you.I feel like killing you evrytime i see you.I feel like strangling you when i hear your voice.Your voice when you flirt are as irritatting as your face.So merepek kn lh kn.The hate-ness in me for you is just super big.

Okay i know i sound like a bitch and whtever people want to say , but criously i HATE this person very much.

Sad :/

2008-09-11T18:47:00.003+08:00

Why did i suddenly put this picture?I must admit it , i MISS those times.And azlizah i MISS you.The way like we use to be.And frankly saying I miss all of them in the picture.I dont care what people what to say, say that aku syiok sendiri.I DUNT GIVE A DAMN at all.But well , i would not get what i want back lh kn.[i think]People change.Surroundings change.EVERYTHING change.LIFE is UNFAIR.I wish i could turn bck the time.But now it's tooo late.YES, i admit, i wish we could be like last time , but not all wish can be granted.

Today is a happy day for me, i guess.Went to school as per normal with Alisa.Reached class then do History mind map.Then talktalk.Went for assembly.Had lesson, it was boring.People surrounding me is so quiet.I use to talk to syafiq or Bryan if im bored but now only Dwight.Tsktsk.

Recess, didnt go to the canteen.Ok lame.Talk to amirah bout something.Then after recess had some boring lessons AGAIN.Then school END!YAY!

Btw thanks amirah and alisa for waiting till i go for the Poly thingy.Then went to the poly thing while amirah,alisa and azlizah went home.They went to westmall and i heard from azlizah and alisa they have ALOT OF FUN.

Criously when they went home i feel like running to them and go home with them.Seeing them walking out of school remind me about ALOT of thing.Truthfully saying i feel like crying on the spot.I dunnoe why but i feel so like a cry baby when it come to this kinda of stuff.Myb i should say , i hvent gotten over.I act tht i had gotten over but actually NO!deep inside my heart i still wish tht we could be together again.Adibah,adibah i cant believe i just let out my feelings in the BLOG.Wht people want to say say lah.I DUNT CARE!

Homed after the science thingy.All the way i was thingking of them.Memories flash back.Its like a picture of album playing by itself and couldnt press the stop button.I feel like CRYING.agian(?)Upon reaching home i quickly ask mom wether i could use the comp.Then mum said YES!

Read azlizah's blog.Sumpah it was sad...I miss you azlizah!I really do!Forgive me if i had hurt your feelings before.I miss you so much , the old you tht dunt hve all those problems.The STRONG azlizah.Not the cry baby azlizah.I nearly cried when i read your blog and while talking to you otf.Im sure you could hear how my voice change.

ALISA.You have always be my BESTfriend.I LOVE YOU TOO!And i hope you dunt change with all this problems.Share to me your probs dear.I'll listen to you.And thank for listening to my probs, thanks for the advice you had always give.

Amirah , well if you're reading i dunt know wht to say.I have said wht i want to say above.It's your choice i wont force you.Im really happy tht you know wht actually happen to azlizah.Criously, i miss you dear freind.Now , ive expressed my feelings.

Now im really crying.I cant hold it any longer.With the sad song im listening to right now.The song tht me,alisa and azlizah listen to when we fight with amirah on the first day.

I know i have been repeating alot of things.try putting yourself in my shoes.

last word I MISS US!OLD US!

Other people laugh at me if you want.I dunt care.Im not scared to express my feelings.

New Skin[:

2008-09-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

I decided to change to a new skin but i cant find the on i want.So stick with this one first then IF i have the time then change.

Holidays is ending FAST.I don[t want it to end.I'm still in the slacking mode and EOY are coming real SOON!
I have to promise myself to STOP SLACKING.Ohh well , its hard to stop sLacking I'm just glued to the comp on every Saturday and im glued to the TV on Sundays.While weekdays im glued to staying bck/hang out in school pr other places.Hohos[:
I dont want ending up hving any E8 or F9 on my report book.I need all B's and ONLY one or two C's.Heee.Adibah have a high target to score.

Okay lets talk about my holidays.Ohh today Adibah has a lot to write[:

On monday i slack at home.Actually i was planning to study but i ended up sleeping,watch tv,chat otf and much other stuff tht waste my time.And monday , ohh well its toooo boring to talk about it.

Tuesday off to school for the lit art thingy.At first it was dead boring.But it became fun when we did the activity.Homed with fredy and azlizah.

Wednesday is the best day of the week[:Had SANA course.Wpre slippers to NP as i injure my leg.We were seprated for the grouping.So i met new friends tht's from GB. and ohh yah I saw Abigail Quah which is Abigail Tee evil twin.Hohos[:My new friend was Yishun[Yi Jun] and Damaris both GB but from diff school.We had to do this role play.Khoirul count and he said i say "NO, I DONT WANT" 7 times.Its my first time riding on a van WITH np mates.Like there's two vans and we had to separate.Inside the VAN, aku crapcrapcrap.Start talking bout SOOK CHING[spelled correctly?]Benson was like asking where we going the i said koji bringing us to SOOK CHING.And others add on.Blahblah.Didnt hang out after tht as i need to be home for breakfasting.Homed with alisa,khoirul and Hon Kuan.

Thursday again went to school for the lit art thingy.Plan about our movie.Criously i cant wait to shoot my movie.Or should i say OUR movie.Home with azlizah.Again craped!Talked bout what if during camp our "dalam2" bersepah.Which will never happen.Then called mum and off to the doctor.Dear friends , Adibah is sick.tsktsk.Sick with a bigbigbig blister on her leg.PAIN!Well it is not just a normal blister , very hard to explain.

Met alisa to study on Friday.At jurong east library.We studied then i played SIMS on alisa in wonderlandXD phone.I suddenly became engrossed to play the thing.After that went to popular then homed at 5.++.We didnt want to go home late.Hehe.Baik kiter berdua!

Saturday went to the doctor AGAIN.This time for get the blister cut.Criously its super PAIN.
Truthfully saying Adibah cried at the doctor.She hold her mum's hand tighly like nobody busniess.Hoho.And i got 1 week going to school wothout wearing SHOE.Yeah.Now the pain had reduce and i dont need to suffer like i use to.But it's still abit pain when i walk.

Okay im done here about my holidays.

And to my Bfreind.
Im sorry i said tht it's over between us.I should hve understand wht you are going through.You hve your own work to do.Im truly sorry.Hope we meet soon and our Thursday morning dates!<3

2008-08-30T19:13:00.005+08:00

Joe jonas is super cute and hot lh kns.Currently im in for him.Hoho.

Okay i have not been updating for a longlong time.Lazy and ive got no mood.

Well yesterday was Teachers' day.Sorry Nadia psl tk turon.And the something i got was actually watching movie XD I hope you're reading this.Hoho.
Lagi pun im lazy to go back.Well now i kinda of regret.I tru;y miss my pri school friends.Hasan,Ummul,Nadia,Nasrul ,Diniy and lots more siolzxzx.I'm soo gonna meet them soon can?
I had lots of fun yesterday.Went to watch Wall-e.with quenton,ting yan,shariff,alisa,nabilah and sabrina.The robot cute sak!Thanks ting yan ,qeunton,nabilah for the treats ; popcorn and nachos.Thanks for making my day guys.Thanks to alisa for teman-ing me to meet my sister at pacific plaza , orchard.And thanks sister for buying me stuff and cheer me up yesterday.Thanks again for lending those ear and giving me advice.You're the best lh kns!

Today it's just any other normal day.Sit at home.Someone told me something today.And i was super shock cans!Ohh gosh.Blah.today is to boring to made into a story.LOLS.

and brw i have been keeping this feeling for a longlong time.Only alisa understands.Thanks my greatfreind!

To someone-
You fight with your friends or myb i should say misunderstanding.I lent you my ears.I advice you.I console you.Is this how u're paying me back.Its not that im asking for more but you are criously treating me or should i say US like LITTER!i tried to get rid of those feelings but i cant.Evrytime i saw it happening i felt disappointed.You said that you felt left out , why? have you asked why.Were you there when we planned something.If you notice , now i cant bring myself to talk to you.i just cant.It makes me mad and sad.Now , im not trying to add on to your problems.i understand what you're facing now but that doesn't give you and advantage.You shouldnt take this as your problem.Im blogging bout this cause i cant stand this feelings any longer.I'll talk to you when i had overcome this feeling.Nvm forget it.Its hard for me to put what im feeling now into words..Till then.

2008-08-18T17:59:00.005+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Hilmi!

Today as per normal.The only thing tht's diffrent is im fasting.LOLS.Head to school.Met alisa,jayraj,reshawn,nabilah and sabarina[sabrina] at bb mrt.
sabarina and nabilah was LATE!The four of us was like idiots waiting by the road.Like childrens scared to cross the road.

School was okay.Had the normal lessons.During HE went to th hall to watch this drama bout HARMONY.then during VE went hall again to watch the debates final.Okay it was quite fun.blahblah.Den get to go home early.

Find Nabilah and the rest.At first it was a total chaos!den evrything got sorted out.Nabilah and Zamzilah went to buy th cake.Den me,alisa,reshawn,ting yan,shariff,sabarina and others wait at school till three as Hilmi class is release at three. Went to get hilmi then blahblah off to th carpark!Ohh yah and it was a surprise party for hilmi.

When we reach carpark we were like okay wht's th meeting bout then blablha HAPPY BIRTHDAY!Hilmi was smiling all th way.LOLS.After th cutting of cake played Police and thief.Hilmi,Nabilah and shariff was the thief.Me,reshawn,weishan and ting yan became the police.Okay i was quite fun.I caught hilmi!LOLS.Random.

Den something happened to nabilah.Lazy to talk about it and i dunt even want to recall bout it.We were veryveryvery shock!.haiyas.Den homed at arnd 4.++.Me and nabilah weht to th mrt station.We purposely miss two trains as we were talking bout something.Hohos.

den reached home arnd 5.20.now im using th comp SECRETLY.Mum is ant my aunt hse.Helping out with the Kenduri.Im waiting for sis to come home and off i go to my aunt hse.Well im going to break my fast there.Lols.

g2g.Need to fetch sis downstairs.Bye souls~

2008-08-15T18:02:00.002+08:00

I just got the mood to update as im bored so here i am updating.

Today is just like other typical school days.
Meet alisa at bb.
head to school, had assembly.
Lessons
After school briefing about prawning thingy.YEAH!
OSL fundraising meeting.
Hang around with TheAces.
Homed.
met sweetloves.

After school went to block with theAce,vincent and wenyew.Then me and Alisa visited the carpark.Ohh i soo miss those times.Criously.I want it again.Myb on monday.They celebrating someone's bdae.Dunnoe if they really going or not.Hohos.I hope they do!

And ohh yah!Mum let me to go to Cambodia.Weehoo!At first i dunt know wether i wanna go but my dear friends force me too.So go jer lh.No harm going:x

Okay im so looking forward for the next Npcc outing.It's so gonna be fun.But oh no! Im totally broke soilzxzx.Hoho.Well th next few events are
-Dry shoot on Wednesday♥
-Prawning and BBQ on saturday!♥
-Live shoot! on following tuesday.♥
i cant wait for live shoot.That will be my ever first time to hold a REAL revolver.Woohoo!

Well reached home and there was no one at home.Mum went to Johor.Gaaaaaahs.Watched th pingpong match.Singapore vs korea.Halfway then lazy to watch played th comp.But i think Singapore won.Random siolzxzx.

well.My post is kinda of boring todayy.Nothing to post about lh kns.

Okay nvm.Bye!

Quotes updated!

2008-08-12T20:11:00.004+08:00

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and always ends with a teardrop.
& I hope it wont end with a teardrop , memories perhaps?

ouh gosh.School was fun todayy.I feel damn high yaw!Alisa was like whatever Adibah.Hohoho.Well she just arrived Singapore yesterday.Teehees.

Okay ART was super fun!Math yay! i didnt sleep.Best!okay whatever.Science sleep AGAIN.i was made a fool in science class.Okay , i was like super blurrrr~And my reaction Ultra slow doks!

after school had math ct.It was okay.Quite easy.Den straight away head home as alisa grounded.Kesian bru smpai dh kener grounded.lols.

today was GREAT.And ultraman yes i love you like i always do[:

such a shortshort post.g2g peepz.BYE!

2008-08-11T18:11:00.003+08:00

Mummy i want that type of camera.LOLS.Then i could snap everywhere i go.But yes i know this type of camera cost a BOMB!I dunt think i could get one for myself:( I envy nabilah siolzxzxzx.Okay , i'll move on.

changed my blog background to RAINBOWS! "renew" all th links.Some of them i cant find their new link.OKay nvm ignore.Mls nk gi carik.& i leran a lesson evrytime someone tag tht they change thier link quickly go chnge.Hohos.

todayy woke up early in th morning.Then bathed two piece of biscuit den off to ngaji.I have not been there for like how many month ready seyh.Now i wanna try to come home early and go for ngaji.Godd girl kn Adibah[:LOLS.

Met my junior while i was on th way home.He didnt change much , but when he started talking like WOW!he use to be very shy and his voice use to be very "small" and now his voice super "big".Hohos.Random.

After tht had tuition.Grrr~Im like super tired uhs.but i tried very hard to concentrate.Revise all the three math chpter tht will be coming out for ct.And yeah i hope i pass my math ct as i know im sure gonna flung scinece.Boohoo!

Done with tuition at 12.30 straight away on th comp. and now here i am blogging.chat with random people and random people suddenly talk to me.LoL.I just did something bad today and im happy bout it.Idk why.Bad siolzxzxzx.

gtg.mum start nagging cause i hve been using comp for hrs.

2008-08-03T15:49:00.002+08:00

I've not updated for a long time.
Gosh..
My blog seems like dead.
Edited some stuff.I decided to only put the stuff tht i really want on my wish list.I have bought it long ago so better just erase it of.Like when are you going to do tht? Just let it stay there forever?I find it dumb putting there.Haha.That's how i think.

Well i got nothing much to blog about.Just posting to make my blog look alivee.I think i'll stop here.Cause i really dunt hve anything to write about. /:
Sighss..

2008-07-28T21:11:00.004+08:00

BORED-

Its how im feeling right now.
Sometimes i feel sad when im bored.Lols.
cause it'll make me listen to those sad songs and remind me of the sadsad past.
Ohh my gosh can someone light up a candle for me?grrrr~
criously im SUPERDUPER BORED.
it make me just wanna type a whole long paragraph.Well i go typing crazing when im bored and blog is where i express when im bored.
Ohh im just totally so bored + sad/:
Can someone like occupy me with some stuff cans?
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~

well it remind me of something , someone to be specified.
idk why but i miss them and the ladies.
how i wish they were here to cheer me up.Gosh!cant my day get any worse?
I just need someone to make me smile.
And i'll love tht person manxsz.
No words in the dictionary can describe my feelings righ now.
Haiyooo!
The post was not suppose to be long.But criously im fcking bored and i'll just type whenever cross my mind.LOLS.

well i'll just hve to end here.My mind is not working.It's totally super dead. I have no mood to do anything excpet to just stare at the monitor blankly and wait for someone to make me smile, a huge grin!
=)

ok gerek!

2008-07-26T19:31:00.004+08:00

Todayy had to wake up extra early cause need to go to school for marshall duty.Decided to meet them first before going to school.Then sis give me money to take cab.WEEHOO~Thanks SISTER! she give me money cause i was suppose to meet nabilah at 6.30 but i was still at the bus stop at 6.25.Super late siolololols!Reached bb arnd 6.40 azlizah and nabilah was already there.Hahaha.

Went to mac first then sabrina came , followed by alisa and reshawn then ting yan & vincent then sherilyn.Some went to school first.Last minute plan oii.Arrived school was like a bit late.Then faster change to number one.Kecoh seyh tukar bju.Zamzilah was like keep on swearing the word fuck as she did something wrong.Hahaha.Then ting yan called us out cause we SUPER LATE.

Marshall duty was like wtf!Stand there like two to three hrs.Kaki cramp siolololols!Then me and shariff keep on giving funny different ideas how the car look like.Damn funny seyh.Then suddenly syafiq[npcc] say "skali dier dtg naek basikal eyhks" .LOLS.We waited so longg just to wait for the GOH.He come then we like end our duty.After tht we could choose wether want go forum or not then many decided not too.Penat seyh.Den punishment was like wth.I think we like do pumping more than 70.grrrrr~

after tht cam whore with zamzilah,alisa,azlizah and nabilah.Klakar seyh.Head to kfc with sabrina,zamzilah,alisa,azlizah,nabilah,ting yan,reshawn ,shariff and wei shan.Then went to car park.First we played "swing";motive dunno random. den played a newly invented game - we hold each other hand then just lean back ; motive is to trust each other.Played spinnig ; motive unknown.Den played dog and bone ; motive is to be alert.

arnd 3.30 went to reshawn hse.At first we dunno want go who's house we decide for like 10 minutes?Take soccer and basketball ball head to the court.JLo came.played soccer then basket ball , soccer , basketball at last just sit arnd.One by one went hme.Den me and azlizah was like mls nk balik.Left only me, azlizah,wei shan,Jlo,shariff,reshawn and ting yan .5.10 head home.

okay todayy was like damn tired and fun too!Hope there's another day like today.And now im having leg painnnnnnnn~Like urgh!

2008-07-20T15:53:00.002+08:00

Fuwh~

Edited my skin abit.It's still not quite done yet.Nvm i'll edit when i hve time.Im sick of seeing CODES.grrrrrrrrrrrr.

This week i had was pleasant.As usual spend most of the times after school with Npmates and the ladies.

Well yesterday went to City hall.Sent mum to the National Library with my sisters as she didnt really sure of how to go there.While waiting for me me and my sis went to Sim Lim.We were looking for MP3.I badly need one!/: the old one spoiled.WTF~

After tht fetch mum.Then i borrowed books.LOLS.Window shoped.then decided go see fireworks.While i was there i recalled the time when i went for NDP during P5.It was super fun!
then went to Starbuck and sit around.We sat there around two hours.And i cant believe that i went "lepak" with mum too.Usually only me and sis.HAHAHAHA.Then heaad home at 10.18.(:

Tmr there's school!woohoo!common test coming.Andand i'll be release from class at 1.15.YEAH!Will be going to HTA.Need to take the size for NUMBER ONE uniform!WEEHOO~[for those not in cca group wont understand why num.one uni is special].Cant wait soil!!! teehees.

ok den gtg.Bye souls.

HELLO!

2008-07-13T18:27:00.004+08:00

Weehoo~

I've changed my blogskin.Thx azlizah for helping me with the bckground:D
She said tht my old bckground was too emo and tht's not me.Hahahas.
First skin tht i did myself[except for the bckground]
I realize tht it's not tht hard to do your own blogskin.
And now my blog is like brand new.LOLS.New tagboard.New skin.
I hope those tag keep coming.Teehees.

This week was awesome!Especially with all the wonderful friends around me.I cant really remember wht happen.

Yesterday went to school at the normal time i go to school every weekdays.WTF!Waited for sally at bukitbatok.went to hve a light breakfast at macdonalds.Then head to school.Reached there Mr nonis took our attendence and we made our way to Crescent Girls school for the national literature thingy.The school super big siol!We headed to the school hall.And again the school hall super big!we watched the performance , followed by alot of speech.The drama tht was act out by SCGS super nicee!Its about the midsummer something.

After all the performance we make way to our booth[bukitviewbooth].There we tell people wht we do for literature at our school.Sally,asyikin ,natasha and stella keep looking out for cute boys. LOLS.Me and sally followed mr syamsul and some other people going arnd.We visited other school booth.Well other school did a lot of fun stuff for literature at their school.

After tht we headed bck to bvss.Sally and I went to westmall.We decided to hve our brunch at KFC but it was closed for renovation.WTF.Den we walked arnd westmall.We went to the toilet then suddenly we heard someone shouting.My heart was like beating damn hard.We heard a woman scolding her child .Tht woman shouted vey loud and her daughter was like crying.It's super scary seyh.We also hear beating sound.LOLS.I pity her daughter manx.

I head home then.Something terrible happen. i boarded 143 double deck bus. The bus continue with the journey.Then suddenly theres a loud "boom" .An old man fall flat! He was trying to climb the stairs to go to the second level but he loose control den fall.Its scary imagine you falling from the staircase of the bus.Damn pain man.The bus then hve to stop the journey.LOLS

Hi earthlings

2008-07-07T16:19:00.007+08:00

Hi earthlings

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

Okay! Im bck blogging before school starts again and i never will get to use the comp.lol.. Criously staying at home can be boring and fun at th same times.Changed my blogskin as there's some problems with the old one.I was kinda pissed of cause i like my old skin mann.LOLS.

My weekend holidays are not so fun.

Saturday spent the whole day at my cousin's hse tht lived opp my blog.LOLS. She and her b.brother getting engaged.It was quite fun but boring at th same time.Its hard when a guy and a girl engaged on the same day [lazy eloborate]Well i spent th whole day with my cousin which was gettin engaged.I sat in her room and chat wit her.We did some stupid , random stuff as we was super bored.She was not allowed to leave her room as she was already all done up.
And as i was bored i did some serious random counting. Im the 5th last grandchild out of 30 grandchild from my mom side.and my lil sis is the last grandchild.Okay i dont know why im telling people this but i find it interesting.LOLS.Random.

Sunday did nothing.Went to the mosque and then went to beela's hse for a while.Mum went off to org kahwin with beela's mum and off i went home.At home rot with my elder sis and eat.Watch legally blonde 2 on tv.I hve watched it several times but i watch again as i had nothing to do.When mum came bck ate AGAIN.I keep eating several times.Mum said tht im like hungry ghost as i keep eating.Criously i dunno why i always keep on eating yesterday i think im too bored.Sis say tht i should continue on doing tht, she says im too skinny.LOLS.

Stayed at home all day todayy.Lazy to follow mum to arab street as she wanted to buy kain with my other aunties.In th morning went to ngaji den bck home.Im using the comp from just now till now.lols.And im fucking bored siol!Watch puteri the whole series then continued on with blog.Random.Im confuse with the joan miro thing so i decided not to do it todayy.Myb tmr or the day after tmr.Haiyoyo!

Now im criously damn bored.I hve been typing random stuff.This post consist of stuff tht should not be here or myb stuff tht i dunt need to tell people.those in lime green are stuff tht should not be included.And i think there's loads of them.LOLS.hahahahahha.Even this paragraph shouldn't be here.Well i'll go random when im bored.

* i just realised tht theres alot of LOLS in my post.it's kinda of irritating =.=

2008-07-04T20:13:00.007+08:00

Hello!

It has been a longlonglong time since i updatee.School this week was okay.Everything bck to normal a bit.Settled th stupid fights.Hvin fun at school with bestiies and seniors.Need to get use of Npcc on Wednesday and with new NCOs.Becoming more and more random. !hve been like sad this few days.I'm like thinking bout him .Alisa and azlizah was there cheering me up.It make me forget bout him a while but when im alone i'll start thinking bout him AGAIN! Things happening arnd really made me sad ]: Sobs!

Had Youth day todayy.The osl booth was quite okay.Selling the chocolate marshmallows well.Except some stuff tht hapened and it makes me unhappy.Had the youth day concert it was not as fun as last year.No band performance , there is only one :(Regretted for not wearing home clothes.Well there's still racial harmony and WE are so gonna wear Baju Kurung[:Teehees!

After school went to Lot 1.Sorry amanda cause cannot follow you.LOLS.Alisa wanted to buy clothes.I was attracted to one printed tee! its superr nice! and i dont know how i was attracted to one shirt tht is bright yellow! I keep on going arnd tht shop to find yellow clothes/pants.And currently I LOVE BRIGHT YELLOW!Alisa and azlizah was pissed off.They asked me to buy one dress then i said " tk der yellow aku tk nk beli"Hahahaha.WELL random oii!

Ohh and not forgetting before making our way to Lot 1 saw erwin.We tried to cover our face but it didnt work.He started shouting our names.And it's like superr MALUUU.Then he said tht Fatin Nabila asked him to wait for herr.We were worried so alisa called nabilah.But she didnt pick up.Erwin said tht he needs to go already as he needs to take care of his "baby".We didnt know wht baby is he talking bout.In the train he keep walking arnd then came bck to talk to us.Evryone was like looking at us.Well whatever.

and btw post todayy is a bit, no ALOT messy.Im not in the mood to post.But someone forced me too.SIGH-

Since the day you started treating me differently I already felt awkward ; but it's too late.I already fall for you.It's seems hard for me to get over you now.But you're acting tht you didnt really know me.The memories i had with you during the school holidays was just too much to forget.Boyy- Im in love with you

2008-06-28T10:55:00.012+08:00

This is such a horrible world.

Didi Cazli - Erti persahabatan - Didi Cazli

I hve been waiting for school to reopen for a long time.But instead I end up in the different way tht i wanted.Problems tht i nvr imagine tht happen , happen.Now how i wish school nvr even started.I'm trying to move on and hve fun as per normal.

if you wanna talk bout people in your blog why you make it private?You can just open it up and let tht person read kn.Hve you ever asked yourself How it feels like when you lost your bestfriend when you don't even know the reason? i nvr say tht you needed my life! I didnt say tht you dunt love people arnd you.About the group thing wht do you think i am?A person who always talk bout bad stuff to people?!Dunt judge me if you dunt really know who i am! You hve nvr been close to me so you wont understand MY TRUE SELF!You also dunt need to tell EVERYONE bout my attitude right!Even the person tht i didnt expected you tell ; you told them.Wasn't tht suppose to be a secret?Okay fine im sorry cause i forced you to tell.PLEASE LH!think why i did tht.How would you feel when you were in my shoes.=.=

Why do you always want to find my fault?Why use Np as a reason?How ALOT is the ALOT tht i criticise other school Npcc?If i really hate other school Np cm ner aku bleyh dpt kwn dri skolah laen?Were you there with us during the camp?You dunt even know wht other school talk bout their own squad mates.Am i they on who always start the topic bout Np?Other people nvr start before ahr?BAGUS!If you say i dunt take care of poeple's thing properly think again , you hve not know me well.She doesnt even lend me her magazine at all.I nvr even touch the magazine or read the magazine.Okay nvrmind im bad wht! So everything is my fault per!Merepek lh kn.See how wonderful humans work ; once they hate tht person all the bad thing tht the person does will be told to every single person who thy knows.But they nvr see the good side of the person.Asl ko nk kener blang semua org aper slh aku?

Why couldnt you just tell me straight forward wht you hate bout me?Why wouldnt you just let me explain myself first?Why didnt you tell me tht you hate my attitude?Why must you tell others but not me?i'll accept whole heartly and try to change.I know i use to hate azlizah, i hate her bcause of her attitude.Not bcause you are close to her.but now she hve tried her best to chnge.Tk per once again aku phm semua slh aku,aku nih kn JAHAT!Saper lgi aku benci bcause dorang rpt gan kau? For wht aku nk control life org.I hve my own life to control.I thought you and alisa were the one who understand me the best but NO.

Me and alisa were the one who try to make you cheer up when you hve your mood swings.We always try to make you smile when you were down.Hve you ever know tht i will be very happy when you smile after you had your mood swing or after you cried.All the sweet memories of us is just to hard to erase cause there's to much.Everything tht we do we will always remind of you.Remember all the AAA stuff tht we want to do together ; aaa music album , aaa match making agency, aaa spy, aaa film.the day when we went to alisa's chalet, the time after OSL camp,the day we went to alisa hse to watch ghost movie the date 13 december 2007, when we confess evrything to each other.Although it's way over but it's still inside my mind.Hve you forgotten tht all?All the time we had been together.Seriously while im writting this i feel like crying, myb i should say im crying.But i dunt know whether you still remember all those happy memories.Although we laughed , smiled in school do you think we were truly happy?We still remember you.The time when we see you cry we felt sad too.I just want you to know tht you should hve told me where i went wrong and we still remember all those time we had.

Now im trying to move on and try to make myself happy.I just realised tht no one understand me.Thanks alisa, azlizah, my seniors and sweetlovegirlfies for cheering me up.I really appreciate it very much.I'll try my very best to stay happy.

2008-06-24T17:15:00.007+08:00

& the earth says hello!

School had reopen and it's quite okay.Except for the problem tht im facing now.Only god understands my feeling and only god knows wht really happen.

Today school was FUN!Went to school per normal.Then hve lessons.Had my first art and history lesson of the year.It was okay larh.After school is where all the fun started.Hang arnd in the canteen as i was waiting for the rest of fund-raising people.Then quenton[dunno how spell] and ting yan came and sit with us.We talk bout Np camp again.Ting Yan told us bout how horny quenton is.LOLS.

Played the peanut game!It was funny seeing them "debate".Talk and laughedlaughed.Then shariff appear.Azlizah was abit pissed of.HAHA!They keep disturbing azlizah.Its damn funny lah!Then azlizah go crush ting yan's math paper.After hanging out wei shan,nabilah,ivan and marcus came and join us.We laughed until the whole canteen can hear.Marcus was talking to us across bout how shariff sleep in class.Azlizah cried as she was pissed of by the disturbance.The funny thing was tht she cried and at the same time laugh.They keep saying who's the one crying just know arh?then evryone started laughing.

I was still waiting for the fund raising committee and they were out of sight.The arnd 3 plus near to 4 they appered.I coul not follow them as i need to reach home earlier.

Homed with alisa,azlizah,nabilah and ivan.Talked bout one guy with alisa and nabila.Azlizah one day you'll know.Nabilah and ivan took the same train with me.Talked bout some stuff.In the bus i recalled wht happen and i smiled to myself.The girl sitting infront of me was like looking at me like im a retard.LoLs.

Bck home called mum wether i could use the comp.She let!Called alisa.Then ting yan msg saying tht tmr np hving breakfast at mcdonalds.Blahblahblah.And here i am blogging and chatting.

2008-06-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

BOOHOO!IM BACK!

click on the picture then zoom in.you'll see something.

a week post here!I'm posting here while beela is reading out every word i type beside me.

went to library with alisa , reshawn , amanda and wen yew on monday.Meet reshawn and alisa first.I was veryveryvery late.Cause mum ask me to send something to cik faridah house.When i went there cik faridah was not at her hse.Infact no one is home!Missed my bus.went to IMM to hve our lunch at LJS .Meet amanda and WY.Den blahblah do our homework with Wen yew help.den homed arnd 5 plus i think.

wen to school on tuesday for OSL meeting .After tht went to the library with amanda and mairah.Lunched at KFC.At the library meet Diniy!Ohh i miss her so much.i started to call her toyol as she tie her hair like one.Have a long chat than joined amanda and mairah bck.Den Wen yew came.Homed arnd 5 plus again i think.

Watched congkak at alisa house on Wednesday.Meet amanda and WY at 11.30.then hang out at the playground first mairah came then.Found a cute little kitten nearby.It's super damn small!Amanda decided to bring it home.We named it MOCHA.Went to humairah house after that to watch another ghost story.after 1/4 of the story the disc jam.So we decided to watch DOA.Homed at 5.54.

school on thursday went to school for OSL general meeting.after tht visit npcc room. afew things happen there.after tht went to ten mile to check the prices at S.S. After tht we went to BPP.Have brunch at LJS.We hve a hard time finding it as we took the wrong lift.After tht went to amanda's house to visit MOCHA.the kitten is super cute.WY came after a while.He feed the cat like he is the mother of the cat.[no offence] We took turn to cuddle the cat to sleep.Homed arnd 5 or 6.HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY JIHAN my little sister.

[Friday i was an idiot!! In fact i am always an idiot..I never failed to be an idiot!! That's right!! I am a number one idiot in the whole world!!!!] beela wrote this while i was in the toilet.So she referring to herself. =D

friday went to mak hse as jihan wanted to take her bdae present.i got mine too!although it veryvery late but i till get something!i got $50! stayed for a while.And i forget wht happen.Happy 45th birthday to my father.

saturday went to the market with mum as i was forced.Homed and went to mak house again to take gongong.then blahblah homed.again i forget wht happened.

beela came to my house on sunday[today].Upload pictures tht was taken from langkawi.We discovered two pictures got ghost in them.She took the picture of the hotel we stayed in.The pictures above.It's very creepy.This is the first time i saw a real ghost pictures and it was taken by beela herself.& mum took a picture with a ghost! unbelievable seyh! after that we went to JE to top up.We ended up taking neo print. Something happened there.The machine is in japanese and we thought tht we press wrongly as there is no sign of the machine printing our picture.we were very shocked as we tot tht we had wasted our $9.Then beela take a look and the picture was already printed.We were super relieved!We laughed a lot and beela cried while laughing.She made me paiseyh a few times seyh! WTH~ after tht she came bck to my hse again and so here i am blogging. =D

andand ohh yah!tomorrow school reopen! i dunt wanna go to school! i suddenly feel tht i hate school and school reopen was always my wish.I 'm just still dreaming in my lala land.ohh i dunt wanna go school but i certainly cannot wait for NP training.

I'm hating someone and i dunt wanna go school as im gonna face h__.H__ sight just wanna make me slap h__ face real hard! criously! the cause of everything started with h__! a real _____no! not_____but _____! YOU STEAL EVERY SINGLE THING THT I HVE ! YOU ARE SUCH A !!!!!! URGH!

the song make me remind of you.

2008-06-14T17:06:00.009+08:00

The song make me remind of you.

I decided to post again today.Im dead bored.And read on the post , i talk bout random stuff.My hand is itchy to type.Im bored.Criously bored.

Stayed at home alone as im lazy to follow my mum and my aunt to Geylang.They go there to buy my cousin's stuff for her engagement nxt month.I rather stay at home than going there.There's nothing at geylang furthermore it's not me who wanna buy the stuff.Im rotting infront of my comp now.its FUCKING HELL BORING.I played games and now im sick of it.

Mum is back then she went out again with my aunt again.They are going to org kahwin.Mum wanted me to follow but i dindnt want to.Again there's no point of me going.I dont even know who is getting married.And im lazy to siap all tht.Wear bju kurong and blahblah.

Well there's something tht hve been bugging me.I dont dare to tell anyone.Anyone as in my friends.Beela knows about it.She keep disturbing me bout the "stuff".And yeah beela is going through the same thing too.Awwwwwwwwwwww.....The trip to Langkawi made me more closer to beela and im sure we forget about our sorrows while we were there."terKn terbeela terkn?"[:LOLS.Random.And btw kiter nyer plan tk jdi lgi seyh.Haisss.kiter nyer plan slalu jdi impian jer.

Chat with amirah just now.Ohh aku sungguh rindu dier(: Dh lamer tk dgr suara kau.& again Random.Then kak ainah talk to me.She asked me to do this survey about smoking.I just do it as im very bored.I wanna go out of this hse! i want to go somewhere tht is fun! not like geylang or what.I wanna hang out with my friends as thy always keep me alive.ohh yah!i finished half of my homework! YEAH! Only history, math paper with the white cover and summary left.I completed the rest yesterday night.Ohh im so relieved.

School holidays are coming to an end.When school re-open there will be hell lots of chnges with my surroundings. & im scared about it.

the weeeeeeeeek.

2008-06-13T17:25:00.004+08:00

HELLO EARRTHLINGS!

it has been a longlonglong time since i updatee.

i was overseas on monday and tuesday.Went langkawi plus pinang.The place was dead awesome.Went there with my cousin.The journey was ververy fun! Shop there. Camwhore with my cousin beela. Took a lot of GREAT pictures.And yeah pictures coming soon as all the pic are with her.

was supposed to be at east coast celebrating Wei Shan's birthday on wednesday.And sorry amanda bcause i cant make it. criously last minute changes sucks! [thts wht wen yew says].I was damn dissapointed man.First mum says tht i could go to the bbq then when i woke up in the morning she says tht i could not go for some reason.I was dead MAD! called amanda had a few plan with her but everything didnt work! =.= Well hope there will be another outing. And yah reshawn say there will!YEAH!a trip to Sentosa and this time all my NPloves must go!

meet my sayangs on thursday.only for a while. i miss them hell loads!Hairinasweet i will nvr evr forget you baybeh. Talktalk , laughedlaughed and homed- After tht went out with my sister..Went to Marina. went window shopping.then went to suntec city.ate dinner at Gelare. ohh it's super yuuuuummy and sweeeeeeeeet[: Then went JE. my sister decided to cut her hair. her new haircut is super cuteeeeeeee. HOMED-

today rot at home.Its dead boring. called alisa about Monday.We are going out with NPloves. Called amanda.She doesnt sound good.WELL CHEER UP MANDA! talktalk.Did some of my homeworks.There's still a stack of homework waiting for me.Gonna continue doing them tonight.and im soooooo gonna finish all my homework by monday!Btw happy 7th anni amirah and alisa.

andand ohh yar!im sooo looking forward for monday! im gonna laugh my ass of man! i hope jayraj and vincent could tag along to then it will be super fun!

two post yaww..

2008-06-05T15:35:00.005+08:00

new hair cut!

well i got two post as the first post was bout camp.
this bout bout the busybusy week i had this week.
i dunt even hve time to use the comp.

Yesterday went to JE as mum wanna chnge money .
Bought new school shoes for tmr as i hve no more shoe for school tmr.
and i've cut my hair!
woohoo!
Finally mum agree to get my hair cut.
My new hair okay larh!
but its hard to tie!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
whatever larh! at least i get to cut my hair.
den blahblah.
homed and 7++ .
watch tv and went to my lala land.

andand i'll be away from 6-11 june as im going to langkawi.
i hope it's gonna be fun.
and maybe my cousin and i will get our own personal room!
only the two of us!
it's gonna be soooooooooo much fun yeah!
i cant wait to meet my bananas tmr!
i miss you guys larh oii bananas mate!

phewwww...

2008-06-05T14:39:00.005+08:00

Im bck at last!
bck from camp and some other stuff.
well camp was a bit borin not as tough as i suspected.
criously annual camp is way much tougher than STC.
but the distance between the jety and our campsite was like damn FAR!
thanks to the rain!
day one did nothing! only did some admin stuff , grouping and tent pitching.
i got to know quite a few freinds! tht's fun.
Atikah from jurongville was my first friend.
after tht "tent" mates.found Sakinah.
she's the only malay in my tent ; luckily got her if not i will be the only mly girl.

Second day-
did low rope,kayaking and landex!
landex was super tiring!
we need to walk a long distance and something happen during the journey.
low rope was superrrrrrrrrrrrr LOW!
not challenging at all.
kayaking partnered alisa.
it was damn fununfun!
night time was veryveryverysuper fun!
it's the campfire night.
Our school was the most crazy hyper bananas!
We were screaming like hell!
its damn alot of fun man!
I lost my voice way before campfire night as i was not feeling well since before camp.
Azlizah keep on saying "simpan suara kau utk kiter nyer performance larh! jgn pekik!"
it's damn funny larh,she was fustrated tht i cheer along with the others before we did our performance.I was already coughing like hell!
i keep drinking water.it make me cannot control my bladder.
azlizah and me was like two desprate girls waiting to go to the toilet.
then both of us run bck to Sec2 campsite after the campfire ended.
Campfire and Kayaking was only the best activity in STC.

Third day-
did area cleaning.
sumpah penat giler sioll!
den blahblahblah.
homed-

and at home weighed myself.
currently my weighed is 39 oii!!